CANT HOLD IT IN.

THAT'S IT.

I'm done and tired with everything.
I have 7 aspects of life.
Three of them are not going smoothly.
4/7, you see where my stress is at.

I just want to yell it out:
CANT I DO SOMETHING ON MY OWN?
WHY MUST EVERYTHING I DO, SHE DOES?
IM SICK OF JUST HAVING HER ALL THE TIME,
SHADOWING ME, COPYING ME, DESIRING WHAT I WANT.

I feel so trap. Like I cant be myself because of HER.
I probably wouldnt have this affect me as much,
but im already miss as it is, and to add this to the concoction,
Im mad.

This temper will prolong, I can feel it.
Unless I get a total relaxation but I still doubt it.
Since my blood is still boiling.

Maybe I'll call it a night now. And fly to the rest of my life.
I still have three that I can count on.
And one part of my life is the only one that keeps me sane.


IM STILL SO MAD THAT IM HOLDING MYSELF FROM CUSSING.
EFF THIS.

Maybe in Love

Current LSS:

Maybe in Love By Park SaeByul



I want my social life back T_T

Fragmented Dream

I had a very good dream.
It was so great that thinking about it again,
Puts a smile on my face, seemingly like a fool.

The one thing I don't like, is that I only have fragments of it.
I try so hard to remember the face.
The person in my dream, but to no avail.

And yet, thinking of WHAT happened in my dream is all worth it.
But I'm still curios about WHO took part in my dream.
Is this how amnesia works?

You see it in your mind--the picture, the surroundings, yourself
All but ONE thing--the people that also took part.
The faces of others, its hard to remember.

I'm trying to fit in the fragmented puzzles of my dreams.
To remember at least one face in my dream.
Rather, that one face in my dream.

Interesting enough, I still grin over it.
No matter how fragmented it seems, I'm loving it.
If and only I can find the rest of the pieces, it would be my perfect dream.

Or so I say.
Maybe the fact that I cant remember fully,
Is because my alter-ego knows I'll regret it.

Deja Vu

I thought I have it.
I thought I was on that position.
I guess things changed, even these intangible connections.
I should have known.
However, I was too confident;
Considering its been too close to say it was far.

I hate not knowing when I'm suppose to.
Leaving me in the dark although I don't belong there.
The ache pains. It bothers me because...
Will this always happen to me?
Then what's the end?

Always and always,
I keep losing these important things.
Taking them now for granted wouldn't help at all.
Wait, is that my security blanket?
The thought of "I might as well get something out of this"
How terrible, no wonder these incidents repeat itself.

And yet another deja vu.

It Just Won't Go Away

It bothers me still.
It bothers me to the point that I can think about this situation for hours.
I just can't believe how thick-faced people can get.
I know she can, but it still amuses me.

You always play the victim, so to no surprise--
I should have figured that you would twist the story around.
It was expected from you, but why do I still find it unbelievable?
I'm still appalled by the whole situation.

They say that I shouldn't say anything.
That seeing us happily together, while you are stuck there..
Is enough to make your head spin. That's your slap right there.


But the thing is, it's not my personality to just leave things at that.
I want a slap on your face for reality check--a HARDER slap.
Especially when I know that you ought to make me the bad guy here.
Spreading the words and sadly, people are gullible to believe it,
Not even interested in hearing the other side of the story.

It still in my system.
I'm trying my best to stay calm and ignore.
But how can I? Your ignorance is getting the best of me.

Do you not know that you're a fool in front of us?
In front of the people who knows the truth?
Because we can hear your lies and twisted words.
As much as I want to laugh it off, I can't.
It Just Won't Go Away.

miss A - Bad Girl Good Girl

The song grew on me. I blame the beats, I am a sucker for lovely beats.



I quote the intro for future reference.

"You don't know me, so shut up boy"

That's right. And what do you know, I am both Good and Bad. Mostly bad..some would say.

Super Junior - Bonamana

I'd rather sleep with giddiness than anger and the solution? Tada~



I can't wait til they released 'No Other' MV.
D.O.N.G.H.A.E. for the win!


Okay, I'm done being angry.