Super Junior - Bonamana

I'd rather sleep with giddiness than anger and the solution? Tada~



I can't wait til they released 'No Other' MV.
D.O.N.G.H.A.E. for the win!


Okay, I'm done being angry.

ANGERED.

There are so much feelings within me I'm not even up to making poems.
Let's just be straightforward.

I'M ANGRY. No, not pissed or upset. ANGRY.

Why? Same scenario like last night. Ugh.
The feeling of having people take advantage of you.
It's hard to take advantage of me since I always know what people are up to with me.
This time, I knew it was going to happen and let it happen.
So I'm paying the consequences by feeling so irritated right now.

It's because we are friends-- closest of friends.
Best friends are you best enemies and once you argue with them, it's like raining fireballs.

I got so heated up that I bluntly told her what she's been doing.
That I know what she's up to and yet I'm cool with it.
Those guilt trip statements, you know? I'm an expert with that.
So then she backed off and let me had my way.
No duh, you can't talk the talk with me, even if you are as feisty as my best friend.
She herself, know the trouble and lost she'll have to deal with once she crosses the line with me.

I was letting out my anger with my other best friend online.
We can relate--since we are both going through the same dilemma. HER.
The text messages I got from her was just--let's just say that if she were talking to my face, she wouldn't even have time to finish her sentence since my hand would automatically hit her face.
That would be terrible, since she's a fighter..so that's one cat-fight a referee wouldn't want to be involved with. WWF anyone?

Wait, what the hell. I'm suppose to be mad. Got distracted since my sister and my other best friend online are talking to me. On the bright note, it's nice to know that I don't hold grudges that long anymore. Or at least I get distracted from being angry for a second.

Anyways, this is the last time that she and I will talk, for now.
"Are you going to be cool with her still after this?" is what my other friend asked.
Of course, I forgive and forget now. I wouldn't throw away everything we had just because we argued tonight. Arguments are part of life, unfortunately. You learn things and what did I learn with my argument with her?

That she is scared of losing me as her best friend as I am from losing her...
Wait, I guess I am a bit mad still since right now, I feel that I couldn't care less..hah.
Since these kinds of ups and downs happen in friendships, for tonight..
Just let me be mad.

Cannot Be Used.

Don't try to rip me off with your bull.
Just what kind of trick are you trying to pull?
Sure, we're friends--close friends.
But now it actually depends.

No, I don't blame this silly issue.
Now I'm about to tell the story so grab a tissue.
Distance kills and that what you chose.
Although from the get-go you know I would oppose.

I said "Your life would be miserable"
and yet you think your life over there would be so compatible.
Mark my words, things will change for the worst
Especially when your lies are not rehearsed.

From way back, it has always been us catering to you.
It must have seemed lovely because you can't bid that habit adieu
Always taking things for granted,
Now even your little mini-me is not wanted.

Try to see things in our perspective.
Get outside the thought that you can always be so collective.
Taking or using things
But that's never going to happened now that you spread your wings.

You chose to leave.
Now everything that you want from us are something you can't ever receive.

Caught!

So much to do, so little time.
I'm trying to figure out how to get this obsession out of my mind.
Every single day; for every minute, for every second
Is there even a time for my reality? Now that I mentioned.

It will go away, slowly but surely
But I see it only growing steadily.
What to do? Obviously confused.
But enjoying it regardless and stays amused.

Oh dear, this obsession is going to get the best of me.
Head in clouds and couldn't be free
It will die, it will die..is what I wish.
Yet somehow I got caught by a fish.

I can't break free from the fish's spell.
It seems more stable than those clam shells.
Stuck in this ocean as a bait
Looks like I have nothing to do but wait.

The ocean is vast and full of surprises.
Now I only see myself with tons of disguises.
I try to turn back but to my dismay
The ocean is too strong for me to just look away

I set this trap up myself
Now see me calling for help.
Never play around the ocean shore
If you don't want to be under a fish's core.

This is not as straightforward as it seems
I only speak in codes and about my dreams.
There seems to be no progression
Because clearly this obsession is now my passion.

I Love to Laugh

I laughed at your face because it's ugly.
I laughed at the way you talk because you try to act cool.
I laughed at the way you dress because you aint got no style.
I laughed at your jokes not because they are funny, but because they are too corny.
I laughed at your life because its senseless.
I laughed at your pride because you don't got one.
I laughed at your logic because they are irrational.
I laughed at your hope because its just a false light.
I laughed at your effort because they are meaningless.


Lastly, I laughed at myself for even tolerating those things when I see you.

Once Again.

Just for the heck of it, I'll post my disclaimer once more:

Beware:

Due to Jea's unconditional stalking incidents, she has developed stalker senses. Please refrain from following her if you do not wish to suffer from painful side effects.

My Horror Flick

You know of Nightmare on Elm Street? When you think its over, it's really not.
He comes back.

Apparently, I have a Freddie Kreuger in my life.
I thought it was REALLY over, then BAM; it came back.
I really want to think its over, but one of my sources said it's not.

Since when was my life a horror movie?
I always have been living a fairytale life, and now it turned into a horror flick.
Thanks Freddie! -_-
I can deal with Fairytales' dilemmas, but when its a scary movie flick,
I usually stop the film before it gets worst , but where the hell is the stop button in my life?

Today was just crazy; he turned on his OA mode and that's just annoying.
He is clearly distorted if he can't get THE message.
No hope--nothing will happen--do you even need common sense for that one?
Don't even try to compare yourself to a classic gentleman
because a gentleman would STOP if they see the lady they pursue annoyed as hell.

I'm frustrated that I couldn't even get my thoughts straight.
Usually, I have a lot more things to say at my own pace
Don't let me write a rhyme just so I can slap your face.

No style-no zest-no looks, what's there to like?
The ugliness wreaks from inside and out, so go on and take a hike.
You can't see yourself in the way others perceived you
You are blinded by your own desires and you might lose your crew
You think this is just a game? Well, you fell under your own trap
Now see if I even give a crap.

There's no free throws in life, gotta earn things your way.
I'm someone you can NEVER earn since You are wayyy out of your league, but hey!
You can suck it up to avoid being the fool.
Although you are kinda digging your own grave by acting too cool
Stop the pretense of holding on to your last hope;
you never had one to begin with and that's something you should cope.

See now? I ended up pulling a rhyme.
That's how frustrated I am with this horror flick's crime.
I'm not the type of person that will spell out everything for you.
Why? because my words shall stab you.

Truth hurts and reality can kill.
Try not to overdose yourself with a pill.
My words are harsh and I prick when irritated
So better run away and lose those hopes before you turn incapacitated.

If things can't turn out for good,
Expect my harsher mood.
Watch out as I turn this nightmare around,
Don't make me burrow you underground.
Turn back and forget while you can, and let me be
because this horror movie's murderer might end up being me.