No wonder I like BEG

My favorite BEG member, Narsha just picked my most biased guy.
Lee Donghae =D

She stated in SGB, “I saw a predebut video of him, and I was surprised by his good looks. I think he was more handsome back then.”

Many men out there must be feeling envious of dear Donghae.
Not to mention, Narsha is really popular among celebrity men.
Nice taste Narsha ;]

K-POP Top 5 Pretty Boys

Ranks of k-pop boys who would look pretty as a girl:

5. Kim Heechul -

It is a given than he would make it on the list.
Ever saw those photoshopped pictures of him in a lady's body?
It is quite fitting, who would have thought he can be prettier than some girls.
I was actually expecting him to rank higher than this spot though.
Kim Heechul of Super Junior knows how to make anyone insecure.

4. G-Dragon

Mistahhh leadahhh! With such a cute face, it is automatic that he would get in the list.
During one of Big Bang's concert, he cosplayed as a girl, and GD with a long wig and dress,
woahh, totally a cute girl.

3. Taemin

Of course he should be in the list. With a baby face like him, he almost instantly will
look very cute as a girl. He has quite a refreshing and young face and he has already
wore a women's wig before, and swear, if you didn't know it was Taemin, you would
think it was a real female.

2. Young Saeng

Really? I really do not agree with this one. I mean he does looked feminine in comparison
to his SS501's brothers, but if he is included on this list, then I should say at least placed
him on lower ranks--because honestly, I think Taemin and Heechul looks prettier as a
girl than him.

1. HongKi

Hands down, Hong Ki is such a cutie. Although I really think as a girl, someone
can beat him. I love his cute and outgoing personality and maybe that is why he went up
the scale despite the fact that Taemin of Shinee is on the list too.

source: arirang

Marry U, Beautiful Donghae

Lee Donghae ♥
and yet I found another worthy fancam of Donghae's solo "Beautiful" =D
self-written, self-composed and self-choreographed. gosh.

Unexpected Turn of Events.

They leave me rather speechless.
If things do not go as plan, I tend to just shrug it off, but this one I can't.
My whole dilemma was left in vain.
All those times I stressed out about it, then to turn into this?!

I have said before how I want to keep things the way they are.
However, there are things that meant for a change.
With that said, I was prepared to let go and moved on--and I was alright with that.

Then BOOM. The "thing" that wanted to let go decided to come back on its own.
And it came back more...clingy?
It's as if though I was the reason the thing could not move forward.
Now, I am raining with compliments here and there.

Omona, I kinda wanted this to happen but at the same time I don't.
I really do not know what I want..but not this, not this.
Now I just gotta try to treasure what I have and welcome what's coming..?
Naw, I don't fly like that. I just don't open my gates that easily.

The thing that wanted to come out in the first place is now trying to get back in.
And real talk, it is more persistent than ever.
Sigh, I gotta deal with this one again.

Just Cope With It.

That's what I realized and that is what summing up my overall thinking.
All I have to do is to focus on what I have--my new years resolution anyways.
If I keep insisting for the things that pleases me the most,
then I will be hurt, for it is such a selfish thing to do on my behalf.
I can't keep everything around me just for fun and for my pleasure

I am pretty much content, but not happy.
If I try to be happy, then I will succumb to greediness.
I already have many shortcomings, I do not wish to add more to it.

This thing will bother me still, although I have to try to cope with it.
In time, it will be less painful... or not.
Regardless, I am okay.

Let's take a break from Singing and start Studying, Wonder Girls Style

Sun Mi of Wonder Girls will take a temporarily leave from group activities.

Many are probably thinking that once you have your career settled,
school is just not the place for you anymore.

However, that does not apply to our very own Sun Mi of Wonder Girls.
She is going to postpone her musical career so she can go back to school.
As a young successful entertainer, you could say it's a really brave choice for her to be able to choose her studies than her current career.

What's even more delightful is that JYPE and her members are fully supporting her.
However, how does Wonderfuls feel regarding this situation?
After all, didn't Wonder Girls just storm out both the West and the East?
They have totally gone global.

So what will happen to our lovely remaining Wonder Girls?
A trainee of three years named Lim will be filling in for Sun Mi's spot.
Sun Mi will still do activities with Wonder Girls until the end of February.
Of course, they are still opening for American singer, Justin Bieber.

JYPE claimed that Wonder Girls are known to be a five-member group in the U.S.,
so it was just evident that they have to choose someone to fill in Sun Mi's spot.

So how will Wonderfuls take this?
Of course as much as they want to support her education,
another Wonder Girl leaving is a bit tragic.
But will they approve of Lim and see her as a worthy representative for Sun Mi of Wonder Girls?
I bet many are as curious as me.

Wasted Time.

I seriously need a job.
There's nothing to do, and I really want to help out with the expenses at home.

Supposedly going to a party tonight.
In this storm? You crazy.
I am not in the best of mood either, I might see something that can just tick me off right now.

I am looking for an excuse, but I haven't got any.
I am usually good with these things, lies and excuses--although I'm not too proud of it.
But my friends once told me that my skills are getting rusty.
How hard is it to bail out to a party?
It's either my skills are indeed rusty or I'm just too lazy to think of an excuse out.

I guess I'll be dragging my but out of this house.
oh yeah, anyone going to k-pop festival this year?

My Sunshine in this Storm.

THIS NEWS regarding Kim Jeong Hoon or better known as John-Hoon in Japan and Howl for Korean Drama OSTs.


His fans have been waiting impatiently for his 8th Maxi Single and John-Hoon will be releasing his newest piece "Rainy Flash" on January 20th for his Birthday! The main track for that matter has become a rather sad ballad . The single will be released in a first press edition as well as a regular edition - whereas the jacket covers will be different for either edition. Moreover, there will be a special campaign for sending John-Hoon Birthday messages - this campaign will be available for those who purchase both editions of the single "Rainy Flash" and will be received directly by the artist himself. All the message, which should be including a name or a nick name, will then be published in the booklet of the first press edition of the planned release this autumn.

Say what? I couldn't believe that with all this rain pouring, I will get to hear his lullabies.
His voice is the perfect thing to listen to in this storm.
yes, it was that same guy who sang and made us fall in love with Boys Before Flowers OST "Love U". Wasn't his voice just too dreamy?

Kim Jeong Hoon is recently doing his military service.
So with this news, it was quite surprising. He already released a mini-album last year.
I am hoping it is not a hoax. I surely miss this guy's works.

Survival of the Fittest.

First week of college is always dreadful.
All these students who have forgotten to register and trying to add in a full class already.
Sigh, so I, a registered student who never forgets to register,
sits my butt down on a chair waiting til all these students get accommodations.

Even if you're among the first student who arrived in class wanting to register,
it still falls on the student's priority number.
Seems kind of unfair for all those old students returning to take advantage of that privilege.

What made this week dreadful was the fact that first week of college, it was storming.
A strong storm here in California? Very unlikely. Mr. weather man wasn't kidding.
I prepared myself for the worst, but I did not know that it was really that bad outside.
I probably used three umbrellas and they all have gotten eaten up by the strong winds.
If only I could miss the first week of class, but that's unlikely.

So that is why my first week was awful.
The storm and the rush from other students.
The small me was trying not to get flatten out by those running kids,
and holding on to my dear life to not get blown away by the strong winds.
Survival of the fittest.

I survived, but I definitely need to get fit, for next week will be the same. sigh.

Plagiarized song yet again?

Blue Bird by a band called Ynot.
Maybe its the fact that they are an underground artists that no one really knows them.
However, we all know how netizens just know this things.
All the beauty and ugly, all the things behind close doors in regard to kpop.

Apparenltly, C.N.Blue's debut single, I'm A Loner, is being suspected of plagiarism.
Talk about deep controversy from a rookie band who's getting lots of love from that song.
As of now they are only speculations and under going process.

I, myself find the two songs easily similar, and the rule about plagiarism?
If at least 7 bars are the same, then the song is plagiarized.

Arirang Top5 Korean Entertainers for 2010

5. Goo Hara ( 구하라 ) of KARA ( 카라 )
4. Dong-ho ( 동호 ) of U-KISS
3. Woo-young ( 우영 ) of 2PM
2. Chang-min ( 창민 ) of 2AM
1. Lee Teuk (이특) of SJ ( 슈퍼주니어)


I always had my doubts with Arirang's listing, but this list is quite promising.

We all love Hara in Invincible Youth. She is able to be outside her box for a change.
She is funny and silly.

Dong-ho? I guess he is trying to more out there.
He is getting attention and thus giving U-Kiss more recognition.

Wooyoung deserves to be in top 5, no doubt.
The guy is very hilarious and knows how to go with the flow,
when it comes to riding someone else jokes.
He never gives a boring statement, always on the go.

Changmin. This one I had my doubts. I really would have pictured Jo Kwon and not him. Although he is entertaing, i prefer Jo Kwon in the number two spot. So I still always question Arirang results.

Leeteuk. Hands down. He deserves this spot. He truly is the most anticipated entertainer of 2010. Teukigayo is very hilarious. Boom made the right choice to hand down his academy to Leeteuk. He is very promising when it comes to MCing and variety shows. He definitely has the skills for it.

The TRAX comeback.

The TRAX had been M.I.A. for quite awhile now.
On January 21st, they are releasing their MV teaser "가슴이 차가운 남자"
The MV includes Super Junior Heechul and f(x) Victoria.
The teaser has been receiving lots of attention when the news was released.

For all SM Town fans out there, surely this is great news.
The rock band, The TRAX will have their comeback on Music Bank on January 22.
Stay tuned and watch this awesome comeback from theirs after a long time.

No Mistake, You're Just Nice.

"Actor/singer Jung Yonghwa of CNBlue has revealed the story that Super Junior Kim Heechul had said that he's nice.

On the show MBC "Golden fishery - Radio star" which was aired on January 20th, Jung Yonghwa together FT.Island Lee Hongki, 2AM Jokwon & Lee Changmin were the guests. When talking about the mistake he had made during MC-ing for last year SBS Gayo daejeon, Jung Yonghwa said "It was such a big stage so I'm really sorry"

He continued with "Since Hongki was in the middle of talking with Kim Heechul-sshi via the phone so he had asked him if I did host the show well or not, and because I was beside him (Hongki) so he (Heechul) couldnt bear to say I didnt do well so he said 'Yonghwa is nice' " which made everybody laughing."

cr: evanesco@sj-world.net

No need for explanations. It just made me laugh.
Heechul is a C.N.Blue fan.
Since his cyworld songs are from C.N.Blue's debut album.

Start 2010 with a BIG BANG.

I'm pretty sure all the VIP's out there has heard of Big Bang's 2010 Big Show.
After the group has taken a year of hiatus, we are all anxious for their next appearance.

They all have been successful with their solo careers.
Start off with Taeyang, Daesung, Seung Ri, G-Dragon....wait... someone is missing!

Yes! Mr. TOP has not been able to do a solo song just yet.
He has been a featured artist for Gummy and Uhm Jung Hwa,
but he hasn't released a solo song just for himself.

Great news. With all the four having solo activities-- amidst the controversies--
VIP surely expect YG to give TOP a solo song.

In their 2010 Big Show, TOP will hype up everyone with releasing his solo song.
Now every VIP will so want to attend the concert.
As for me, I'm stuck here in the west, so fancams anyone?

Jaebom, Where Art Thou?

Apparently there were speculations of him being in a Hollywood film.
Hype Nation, the same movie which rumored of Boa and Son Dambi's appearance.
Will this movie really cast Jaebom or just pull him out like the other two said artists?

Nonetheless, it is funny how the media and press try to get answers from JYPE.
Hello..? The guy quit remember? So whatever he decides, JYPE probably wouldn't know.
There were various videos of Jaebom b-boy dancing, maybe the producers discovered him.
The guy might be a but pitch-y in singing, but his dance moves are worth seeing.
But wouldn't all Hottests out there just rather wish he comes back with his 2pm boys?

When K-pop dominates.

Who watched American Idol?
Did you guys see a guy named John Kim?
With the last name, I figured he was Korean.
With that said, I was expecting a down-right nice audition, and I was correct.

His voice was whole and he had great control.
Still, with those attributes what made his audition worth seeing was
the fact that Shania Twain was smitten not by his deep vocals,
but rather his deep bottom and full lips, talk about distraction.

Watch it yourself:



Even when he exited out, you see Shania checking his behind, oh boy.
Regardless, he made it to Hollywood, but will he go far?
With all those K-pop lovers out there trying their best to make K-pop into the west, maybe.

He wasn't a bad singer, to the least, his voice resembles K.Will a bit.
Now I actually have a reason to watch this show again.

This feeling won't stop.

First day of college again. I wasn't ready to go back just yet.
It was raining, no--it was storming.
Thunderstorms roaring non-stop, I could hear them by my window.
It was scary, really scary.

School was wet, flooded.
How else could I enjoy it?
Especially when this feeling is eating me up.

I don't even know why it is bothering me.
Maybe because I finally realized its importance--the thing I want to keep.
Then it just slipped away like that,
leaving a hole in my selfish heart.

The Princess Disease.

Every princesses doesn't want anyone from her kingdom to part from her.
No matter how selfish it seems, a princess is just used to that kind of environment.
It's how they have grown up, it has become their lifestyle.
Of course, nothing runs smoothly all the time, so let downs are inevitable.
Living in a big castle, a princess can only depend on the people around her for happiness.
What is she to do, when one by one they just leave her side?

I want to keep my kingdom the way it is.
But it can't be help, some people go beyond the castle walls,
and the saddest thing is that they don't, or never look back.

The saying "you never know how precious someone is until they are gone" is indeed true. I want to stop taking things for granted, but i find it hard.
It's there, I push it away. It goes away, I pull it back.
But I don't have the strength to always pull things back,
especially those who have drifter too far,
rather I just stand and watch it drift farther,
unable to do or say something for it to come back.
Then I sulk myself for days, and live the rest of my time lamenting.

For those who I could pull back,
I can't help but feel sorry, because they are victims of my selfishness.

In the end, those princesses seem to have everything.
They have so much, that they don't really know what they really want.
Apparently, they too, are victims of their own selfishness.















College starts tomorrow. Yikes.

C.N. Blue Album Review

C.N.Blue's mini-album is out!
I listened to it, I'm amazed that I like some of their music.
I won't degrade this group just because they have the music I least prefer listening to.
But I won't be too wonderful either just because I'm Jung YongHwa-bias =]

Regardless, my taste of music won't change because of my bias-ness.
I only liked the soft and mellow music they have in the album.

Like this one: (I Will Forget You)



However, they have rather raw vocals with them, not to mention, they sing in English.
But for those songs that's not my favorite, they are not bad.
I can listen to them and not complain.

For instance, (Love Revolution)



Overall, for a rookie group, this album is really nice.
7/10 =] considering it is only a mini-album
They are already topping Mnet charts, which is a wow.
Considering the recent K-pop has been subject to auto tunes and hard beat lately.
Bands and Indie songs like these don't usually gets recognized in the K-pop scene nowadays.
It must be Shinwoo oppa's doing =D all his fans crazed for their Debut.

C.N.Blue I'm A Loner MV (with Lyrics & Translation)

Just after releasing their final teaser, the MV came out.
Great, more Shinwoo oppa, but like what I said before,
their genre is not something I would listen to.
While watching the MV, the tune was actually pretty catchy.
Although it is not my type of music, I came to like this song.
And noo, not because I am YongHwa bias here XD

Someone pointed out that their style resembles Maroon 5.
And I quite agree, no wonder I am liking this song right now.
Considering Marron 5 is one of the few bands I actually listen to.

Here's the MV.



Nice..? No..? it's my current LSS.

Lyrics.

oetoriya oetoriya
oetoriya oetoriya)
bwabwa nareul bwabwa ttokbaro nae du nuneul bwa
geobwa imi neoneun ddan goseul bogo isseo
check it one two three sigyebaneulman chyeoda boneun gae
mal an haedo dareun saram saenggingeol ara

(Rap)
yojeum neon na anin dareun saramgwa mannami jatdeora
ijeneun meonjeo jeonhwado geolji andeora
narang isseul ttaeneun haruga 1chorado neon nae apeseo yojeum haneulman bodeora
Oh~ I know your mind imi neowa naui geori
meoreojin geurigo beoreojin namboda motan uri sai

# oh baby oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~ oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~
외톨이야 외톨이야 사랑에 슬퍼하고 사랑에 눈물짓는 외톨이
oetoriya oetoriya sarange seulpeohago sarange nunmuljitneun oetori
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight gaseumi apa
Oh no no no no no body knows mam molla
one two three four five six seven night su manheun bameul seumyeo nareul dallaego isseo

(Rap)
charari dareun saram saenggyeotdago naega sirheumyeon sirtago
charari soljikhage malhaejwotdamyeon nan neoreul jukdorok miwohajin anhasseul tende
check it one two three ne mareul doesaegyeo bwado irijeori dulleodaeneun geojitmariya

# Repeat
sarangi gane sarangi ddeonane
(han sarameul geurigo han sarangeul naegeneun iksukhaetdeon modeun geotdeureul)
i bami gamyeon neol jiwoyagetji
(geurae na eokjirorado neoreul jiwoyagetji nal beorin neol saenggakhamyeon geuraeyagetji)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)
oetoriya oetoriya daridiridara du~ oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~
oetoriya oetoriya sarange apahago sarangeul gidarineun oetori
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight kkum igil wonhae
Oh no no no no no body knows nal molla
one two three four five six seven night su manheun bameul seumyeo nunmul heulligo isseo

Translation

(I'm a loner. I'm a loner.
I'm a loner. I'm a loner.)

Look, look at me, me. Look at me straight in the eyes.
Look, you are already look at elsewhere.
Check it one two three, you only keep looking at the clock.
You don't have to tell me. I know you got someone else.


(Rap)
You've been meeting someone else often lately.
You don't even call me first anymore.
When you are with me, you would only look at the sky even if a day is a second long.
Oh~ I know your mind. The distance between you and I.
Getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.


# oh baby I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner. I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. My hurt hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

(Rap) If you had just told me honestly
that you got someone else. That you hate me.
Then I wouldn't have hated you to death.
check it one two three. Remembering your words, they are all silly lies.

# Repeat

Love is going. Love is leaving.
(One person and one love. Everything that I've been used to)
I should erase you after tonight.
(Yes, I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)


I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm crying passing many nights awake.

cr:Cnblue-sky.net

Save the Best for Last

I am not anticipating for C.N.Blue's debut.
Their genre is not something in particular that I want to listen to.
What I am anticipating for is Jung Yong Hwa's debut stage.
Ever since You're Beautiful, I have been waiting til I see his face around k-pop world.
His character in that drama did kicked off Ji Hoo sunbae of Boys Over Flowers
off my number one favorite second guy.

His teaser finally came.



Shin Woo is back.

Omo~

I was debating whether I should blog this or not,
but now it hit me, I have something to say about this news
so I might as well blog it.


Korean actor Lee Min-ho is set to make a comeback to the small screen in April, according to television broadcaster MBC on Monday.

The actor has been cast for the lead role in a new MBC TV series, tentatively titled "Personal Taste", which is based on a novel of the same title by Korean writer Lee Se-in.

Lee will play the role of Jun Jin-ho, who pretends to be a gay man in order to become roommates with a woman who wants to live with a gay male friend.

An MBC drama executive explained that Lee's combination of "a sophisticated image and the appeal of a man" was perfect for the part and for fulfilling female viewers' fantasies. He also added that Lee's "gripping dramatic presence and his shameless acting" will be convincing for the viewers.

"I decided to do the drama as soon as I read the script", the actor was quoted as saying.

The 22-year-old actor, who debuted in 2005, rose to stardom after starring in the smash hit "Boys Over Flowers" last year. The drama co-starred Korean actress Koo Hye-sun and idol group member Kim Hyun-joong of SS501.

"Taste" is scheduled to air around April after "The Woman Who Still Wants To Marry" ends its run.

Yup, it was that guy from Boys Over Flowers.
We all love how Goo Jun Pyo just act so hard, yet when it comes to Jan Di,
he melts down to a total silly kid. Aiisshhh~

I was waiting for his new drama and the new character he would be playing.
Who would have though that after all the attention he got from his role,
he took a break from the limelight and completely just did CFs.

Now he finally has a new drama, and what more could it be?
After Lee Minho's "I'm the boss, I'm tough" character, he actually took a role of a gay guy.
Kudos to this actor, he knows how to challenge himself well enough.

I am anticipating for this, I will clearly watch this.
I can't picture Goo Jun Pyo acting gay yet XD

My Today.

Today I hung out with a friend.
We went to our college to buy our books,
to only find out we can actually rent some of them, great,
at least I can save more money now.
If only books are cheaper, then college would have been lovely.

Then right when I get home, my other friend phoned me.
Just to keep her company as she buys her own stuff.
It was nice catching up with here, s'been awhile.
I love those times, doesn't everyone?
hopefully, there's more.

today was rather..fine.
although I regretted spending on something I should have not bought.
those are one of my biggest regrets, sigh.

2PM Tik Tok released.

Right when the news of 2PM releasing a new single, I have been anticipating it.
Let alone, with Ms. Yoon Eunhye too, gosh, I love her.

And here it is.

The song is pretty catchy.
The only let down is that for some apparent reason,
JYP music has been subjected to many auto tunes lately.
Not that I'm complaining, my favorite track from this group is Tired of Waiting;
and that song is pretty much auto tune all the way.

Even the rap sounded nice, because I really don't think any of 2pm's rap is worth it.
Sorry to all Taecyeon's fans out there, and Chansung, they need to rap better.
but this song's rap was fine. Let's see if this music can last in my ears.

English Translation

Nobody knows how much I miss you everyday
As I embrace you behind the stage, my heart thumps

We may greet awkwardly in front of other people
But to tell the truth, I’m the one who knows you best

The way you glare, it’s louder than words
The way you want me, the way you’re thirsty
We are so crazy for each other.

***Hook***

Secretly loving someone,
The fact that you’re my girl,
It drives me crazy everyday,
I just want, want you so much

Come here, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
When I see you, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
For the entire day, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
My heart goes Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok

Nobody knows
That we’re in love like this everyday
In my heart, there’s no room for anyone else but you

Tik, I knew it from the start
Tik, There was something about you
Tik, The way you looked at me
Tok, Your exciting love
Tok, And I’m always thirsty for that love
Tok, I always end up searching for you

You’re my only star
No one knows about it so don’t worry
Look into my eyes, I will protect you
I will stay by your side just like this

its our secret its our secret its our secret
It’s taking control of me

I’ll take the burden of our secret rendezvous
Us, proudly holding hands together just like everyone else

Even during my busy day, my work and dreams are forgotten because of
Our love ticks like a clock that doesn’t know how to stop

Baby It’s over Baby It’s over Baby It’s over

cr: musictology

LaLaLa

Younha who is an artist that is both known in Japan and Korea
have released a new album.

Since her genre is not something I listen to a lot, i usually skip her songs.
But then new promotional single "Broke Up Today" is a nice ballad.
Due to that, I decided to listen to her CD.

Of course majority of her songs are still rock ballads.
Then LaLaLa came on, it gives a really calm, jazzy feel.
It was an instant favorite and has been my LSS for the last couple of days.
It's hard not to like this song, even if you don't listen to jazz.



nice tune. It makes me wanna La La La~

Super New Year~

the greatest 4o seconds news of my life so far.
Super Junior 4th album this year.
how fun~ hopefully all members are present.

Pinkified.

I just opened this blog, yet I feel like moving again XD.

Renovating the house, so it's a mess.
Boy, have I been in distress.
My room is finally pink.
cold, cold, cold~
My room is now vinyl.
No more carpet floor,
and now at least they fixed my door.
Now I gotta start putting things back on its place.
before my grandma starts nagging at my face.


My brain is so fried, yet I blog about my room with a rhyme.
what the hell.

Two Confessions on One Night

The title says it all. Pretty good timing from those boys huh?
In all honesty, it's pretty burdensome.
Of course, both received a "no" from me. Those "we're better off as friends" statement.
I'm NOT interested, and never will be.

I respect that of course, they may have feelings of still trying to see that maybe I'll change my mind, but really, it won't.
And what's even more worse are the people around them, encouraging them to still go for it.
and those people are my friends. Whaaaa?
They know I'm not interested, yet they still encouraged my suitors to pursue me.
It's frustrating, if they are my friends, they should know where I stand.
and should help ME instead of them.

I'm a pretty private person. I like keeping things down low.
So low, that no one even knows I am currently dating this one guy.
But just dating, because I don't want to be in a relationship right now.

It is burdensome for me that these guys expresses their feelings to me in public, knowing that I just rejected them. Heck, people from San Leandro even knows now >.>
I don't blame them, it is their feelings, who am I to tell them to not express it?
But like I said, my personality finds it burdensome. I don't want to deal with those things.

I am spiteful, I have to say that. When it comes to rejecting guys,
if I don't like them, then it's a big NO and it will never change.
My mind and heart stays firm, because I have so many things to sort out right now,
it is not time for me to venture on relationships yet. So get that?
It would be nice to actually have some people around me to help me out,
to help me tell these boys there's no hope and they should not waste their time on me.
But noooo, the people aroundme really, encourages these boys more.

The people who actually knows me, who actually supports me are miles away from me.
It has been months since I last saw them, and I miss them dearly.
They love listening to my stories and I have to wait two more weeks to be reunited with them.
Better than nothing. I have been keeping this all to myself, once I see them,
I will surely let everything out~ because they know me.

Post-2009

The countdown with my family is still in my head.
Boy, was it noisy and fun.
I love celebrating New Years with my family--it has been a tradition, we are trying to keep.
I slept around 4am, because my cousins and I are up talking, heart to heart.

Bidding 2009 farewell sure is easy. I know 2009 had many ups and downs- but mainly downs.
I sure had my jolly days, days in which I want to keep in my memories.
But if I was given a chance to relive 2009 again, I'll say no and thank you.

2009 has been great for me, truly I am thankful. All those memories shall be kept.
All the lessons will be learned, and for a fact, all the downfall will help me get through with the worst possible situations I have yet to experience.

My New Year's resolution?
My sister told me, just be a better person than you are from last year.
but how? After giving it some thought, I only came up with one.
For next year, I will try my hardest to not take things for granted anymore.

That has always been the case for me. I will try to be a better Jea in 2010.
A person even I can be proud of. Yikes, that's sounds really hard.

Still, I am looking forward for 2010. Ready? Set and Go.