Statistics Mid-Terms

Oh man, never in my life..did I feel very anxious about taking an exam.
No matter what subject it is, I breeze through it with no fail.
But man, Statistics midterms?! Probabilities are NOT my thing.
And it just so happens that we are on that chapter.

I tried studying for it because I cannot afford to get even a C on this test.
So I opened my book last night and thought I should cram for it.
Then BAM! I realize that I do not know how to study 0_0
I always pass and get my A's with not much effort, that when I actually
need my A..I do not know how to get it..with studying.

So I read my notes, and try to do the example problems..
Then I tried doing more problems on the book..but I totally do not get it.
Why is it that when the teacher shows you how to work on a problem,
on the book the questions they give you are in no way similar to what the teacher has shown.

I have no problems with Statistics, its just those darn probabilities.
They kill me and I just don't get them.

"You have 2 dice in your hand. What is the probability that the first dice will roll and odd number and the second one would land on a 6?"

Like I care about the percentage on which number my dice would roll!
Just roll the dice and play monopoly!

Math never applies to real life.... (well, stats is not really math)
So I walked into a building and saw a triangular painting.
My first thought would be "I wonder what's the SIN, COS, TAN of that painting? Hm.."

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............... yeah, like that would ever happen.

Second-Hand Weed

So who knew that there's a sitting arrangement in college?
In my ECD class there is.
And lucky me get to sit with this girl.
and oh my gosh...does she smell weed everyday!

When I sit next to her my mind goes off to see rainbow and ponies.
Swear, second hand weed..every tuesday and thursday.

Before, I thought that the weed smell was from a skunk.
Then I started asking why some smell like skunk.
Was it their entertainment to be farted on by a skunk?
My friends laughed at me and told me that "that" awful smell was weed.
That's how I knew how weed smelled like and it smells like crap.
Addicts, how can you stand sniffing that garbage?
Gives me headaches every single time.

Well, of course there's the possibility that the girl that's sitting next to me doesn't smoke weed. It could be because she finds it entertaining to be a skunk's toilet bowl. But man, two more months of smelling that crap? sheesh -_-

Apparently, my ECD class turned into a weed class.
Don't be surprise if I turn out to be a hippie by the end of May.

Disclaimer

Stalkers know me from my back view.
Interesting.
Well, that's why they are called stalkers -_-

I should give those guys some medicine if all they're going to do is follow me.

Beware:

Due to Jea's unconditional stalking incidents, she has developed stalker senses. Please refrain from following her if you do not wish to suffer from painful side effects.


Disclaimer said it all.

Those Idioms

Those sayings..sometimes they make sense and sometimes they don't.

When you are stressed out, they say that you have "to go really far away from your problems to see how small they really are" Does that saying actually work? It is very situational and for me, it never works. Once I stray and forget about my problems, I will forget about them completely..then BAM! the consequesnces will occur. Then i'll have that thought.."man, I should have figure out the solution beforehand."

So then when I'm stressed what do I do? There's the saying of "going with the flow", which never work as well. Going with the flow is giving your conformity--
You don't know where you're headed but still tag along with the waves.
How about I just follow the wind?
If I follow the wind, I still wouldn't know where I'm heading,
but at least I can stop at my own free will if I'm not too sure of the road I'm following.
Its better than being carried away, not knowing what's ahead and when to stop.

So I follow the wind, then I keep following until I come to a dead end. What now?
They say, "turn back when you reached a wall, to learn what you have done wrong and to not do it again."

If I ever do that then it would mean that I would have to retrace my steps..
Relive my mistakes..and I'm all for NOT regretting anything; but learning from it.
So what the heck..I ain't turning back once I have come across a great ordeal
just to figure out the right way by looking back.
Heck, I'll get a bulldozer and ram that wall out of my life.

See, those idioms are pretty much senseless in my complicated life.
Or am I being too logical and delusional?
Well, I did try them a few times, but it didn't quite work out.
idioms are for idiots..? They say.

So if burdens are too heavy and lil 'ol me can't go on anymore..what shall I do?
Simple.
If the world pushes me down on my knees, I would just pray.

The List.

Those days when so much things are piled up in your schedule.
When the term "so much to do, so little time" applies
Wishes that time can somehow just stop for an instant
Thinking of taking some yoga lessons again
Taking Tylenol before going to bed
Wants some time alone
Wishes to hug thy teddy bear every single moment that passes
Wants to just stay in the shower for some warm bath


.....yeah.
If that ever applies to me, then its a given:

I'M FRUSTRATED.

..and apparently, the list very much applies for today..and with the past few days.

Reunited..Feels That Good?

So then I heard of a good news on Sunday..supposedly.
There's this three people in my life, who had been involved in my usual Sundays.
Then they left because:

Person #1: bought a Treasure Island on Atlantis which seems so impossible to visit everyday.
Person #2: mandatory school & LWN..? Who knows.
Person #3: Just left because everyone else had.

Then they are all coming back again, though it sounds surreal I can picture it.

Except for Person #2, he's always up to something, usually its not something good =D
You see him doing something, you think there's progression along the way,
but in the end he leaves things undone. He's like a criminal on bail.
He goes TNT for awhile, and when someone pays his bail, he shows up.
Don't get me wrong, I love the guy.

Then there's Person #3 who's mind is still in the gutter as to always go with the flow.
He heard of people leaving then he leaves, then they come back, he decides to come back.
See? Going with the flow, I wonder how it would be like if his mind is stuck in a canal.
I mean, that's the worst thing that can happen.
Since his mind has been flowing in a stagnant water polluted by Person #1 =D

Person #1 already kicked things off Sunday.
Many can tell that his heart really belongs with pens and whiteouts.
Despite having two coconuts in a bucket, he knows how to manage his time
when it comes to getting his pencil sharpened.
The reunion happened because of his influence...?..you can say.
He's like the mastermind of everything. I don't want to attached the word "evil" though
because usually his purpose is good; but when he is up to something...it can be worst than Person #2.

Although I blatantly put things out like that, I am very happy for their come back.
My metaphors and similes might have sounded rude, but that's not my reason at all.
That's just how I roll.

If you asked me, there's four more people who shaped me in regards to being effective in the office. One has his heart set in San Jose, Two sung his way to Riverbank, Third is busy taking care of his family and Fourth, where did she go? Probably exploring the world for a new cellphone.

I love these people although I can't show it most of the time.
Omitting Family, they are my top choice for influencing me...good or bad.

But just to clarify because Person #1 might say something:
Physically nothing changed to me; but mentally, these people have seen me grown..i think.

Ohmygulay.

ECD 51 - 4-pages observation due on Wednesday.
ENG 1A - 6 pages of rough draft for essay # 2 is due on Wednesday as well.
Statistics - Math lab due tomorrow.

Wow. I'm packed. My computer chosed the perfect time to crashed on me.
How many of those papers are done? NONE.
Did I at least start on them? No. -_-

Progressed: 0%
Days Left: 1-2 0_0
Drive to do the homeworks: -100% -_-

Procastination, baby!

Hello Stanger.

There are times when we act like best friends. In reality, we are just friends.
Now, we act like total strangers.
Not even bothering to say a simple hello.

How did it get to that point?
I mean, we always have these days.
And a text from you saying "we never talk anymore" cleans things up.
then we start catching up with each other.. then back to being strangers.
Why oh why...one word.

Annoyance. There are just those days when you get into my nerves.
I know that I really should put up with you, since you are still in your sprung stage.
But what about me? Do you really expect me to tolerate such immaturity?

The things you do to get my attention bothers me.
We're already friends, what's so difficult with saying "hello"..?
I get it, I intimidate people.
However, you of all people, should know that that's not my intentions.

So then you brag with your nonsense, and I just quit.
I guess we're better off as strangers if you don't stop being so ignorant.
You know well that your simple hints of getting my attention bothers me.
So why insist on doing it?

Still, waiting for that text: "we never talk anymore"
But this time when I receive that text, I have my reply set and ready:
"because I don't want to"
So stranger, let's remain as strangers...for now.

Until you show me your diploma in regards to you graduating in your immaturity.
Get a sub-teacher, because I refused to be your adviser.

-_-

FRUSTRATED...


Big Time.

Ugh.

Departure

I really have no troubles with saying goodbye.
See you soon because I know we are bound to cross paths again.

However, this goodbye bothers me.
Because she has been a huge part of what I'm doing .
Always there to help out, really quick with her wits.
Then to suddenly leave, caught me off guard.
Now I'm really bothered.

I wish for you to stay.
To not worry whether or not you can help out 24/7.
Even popping out every blue moon is fine, as long as you are still part of the team.

Dirty Secrets

Gahh, people have find it in their best interest to confide in me.
Not to sound conceited, but I do not have a loose lip.
But sometimes, things they tell you..can sound very..unusual.
To the point of ...disturbance.

There are things that's better left unsaid and unheard.
I do not mind gossips, I do not start gossips but once I hear of them,
It is just human nature to listen to those stories.

But secrets can be very dirty,,, and those I mind a lot.
My head if filled with secrets and there's this one that just disturbs me.
It is something I have been knowing, but to learn more about it in details...
Totally made my sense of reason fly out of the window.
Gahhh...its bothering me. very much.