My Obsession

CANT HOLD IT IN.

2010-12-08T22:24:00.000-08:00

THAT'S IT.

I'm done and tired with everything.
I have 7 aspects of life.
Three of them are not going smoothly.
4/7, you see where my stress is at.

I just want to yell it out:
CANT I DO SOMETHING ON MY OWN?
WHY MUST EVERYTHING I DO, SHE DOES?
IM SICK OF JUST HAVING HER ALL THE TIME,
SHADOWING ME, COPYING ME, DESIRING WHAT I WANT.

I feel so trap. Like I cant be myself because of HER.
I probably wouldnt have this affect me as much,
but im already miss as it is, and to add this to the concoction,
Im mad.

This temper will prolong, I can feel it.
Unless I get a total relaxation but I still doubt it.
Since my blood is still boiling.

Maybe I'll call it a night now. And fly to the rest of my life.
I still have three that I can count on.
And one part of my life is the only one that keeps me sane.

IM STILL SO MAD THAT IM HOLDING MYSELF FROM CUSSING.
EFF THIS.

Maybe in Love

2010-10-26T23:12:00.000-07:00

Current LSS:

Maybe in Love By Park SaeByul

I want my social life back T_T

Fragmented Dream

2010-10-26T22:01:00.000-07:00

I had a very good dream.
It was so great that thinking about it again,
Puts a smile on my face, seemingly like a fool.

The one thing I don't like, is that I only have fragments of it.
I try so hard to remember the face.
The person in my dream, but to no avail.

And yet, thinking of WHAT happened in my dream is all worth it.
But I'm still curios about WHO took part in my dream.
Is this how amnesia works?

You see it in your mind--the picture, the surroundings, yourself
All but ONE thing--the people that also took part.
The faces of others, its hard to remember.

I'm trying to fit in the fragmented puzzles of my dreams.
To remember at least one face in my dream.
Rather, that one face in my dream.

Interesting enough, I still grin over it.
No matter how fragmented it seems, I'm loving it.
If and only I can find the rest of the pieces, it would be my perfect dream.

Or so I say.
Maybe the fact that I cant remember fully,
Is because my alter-ego knows I'll regret it.

Deja Vu

2010-10-18T21:48:00.000-07:00

I thought I have it.
I thought I was on that position.
I guess things changed, even these intangible connections.
I should have known.
However, I was too confident;
Considering its been too close to say it was far.

I hate not knowing when I'm suppose to.
Leaving me in the dark although I don't belong there.
The ache pains. It bothers me because...
Will this always happen to me?
Then what's the end?

Always and always,
I keep losing these important things.
Taking them now for granted wouldn't help at all.
Wait, is that my security blanket?
The thought of "I might as well get something out of this"
How terrible, no wonder these incidents repeat itself.

And yet another deja vu.

It Just Won't Go Away

2010-10-01T23:44:00.000-07:00

It bothers me still.
It bothers me to the point that I can think about this situation for hours.
I just can't believe how thick-faced people can get.
I know she can, but it still amuses me.

You always play the victim, so to no surprise--
I should have figured that you would twist the story around.
It was expected from you, but why do I still find it unbelievable?
I'm still appalled by the whole situation.

They say that I shouldn't say anything.
That seeing us happily together, while you are stuck there..
Is enough to make your head spin. That's your slap right there.

But the thing is, it's not my personality to just leave things at that.
I want a slap on your face for reality check--a HARDER slap.
Especially when I know that you ought to make me the bad guy here.
Spreading the words and sadly, people are gullible to believe it,
Not even interested in hearing the other side of the story.

It still in my system.
I'm trying my best to stay calm and ignore.
But how can I? Your ignorance is getting the best of me.

Do you not know that you're a fool in front of us?
In front of the people who knows the truth?
Because we can hear your lies and twisted words.
As much as I want to laugh it off, I can't.
It Just Won't Go Away.

miss A - Bad Girl Good Girl

2010-07-03T22:18:00.000-07:00

The song grew on me. I blame the beats, I am a sucker for lovely beats.

I quote the intro for future reference.

"You don't know me, so shut up boy"

That's right. And what do you know, I am both Good and Bad. Mostly bad..some would say.

Super Junior - Bonamana

2010-06-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

I'd rather sleep with giddiness than anger and the solution? Tada~

I can't wait til they released 'No Other' MV.
D.O.N.G.H.A.E. for the win!

Okay, I'm done being angry.

ANGERED.

2010-06-30T22:29:00.000-07:00

There are so much feelings within me I'm not even up to making poems.
Let's just be straightforward.

I'M ANGRY. No, not pissed or upset. ANGRY.

Why? Same scenario like last night. Ugh.
The feeling of having people take advantage of you.
It's hard to take advantage of me since I always know what people are up to with me.
This time, I knew it was going to happen and let it happen.
So I'm paying the consequences by feeling so irritated right now.

It's because we are friends-- closest of friends.
Best friends are you best enemies and once you argue with them, it's like raining fireballs.

I got so heated up that I bluntly told her what she's been doing.
That I know what she's up to and yet I'm cool with it.
Those guilt trip statements, you know? I'm an expert with that.
So then she backed off and let me had my way.
No duh, you can't talk the talk with me, even if you are as feisty as my best friend.
She herself, know the trouble and lost she'll have to deal with once she crosses the line with me.

I was letting out my anger with my other best friend online.
We can relate--since we are both going through the same dilemma. HER.
The text messages I got from her was just--let's just say that if she were talking to my face, she wouldn't even have time to finish her sentence since my hand would automatically hit her face.
That would be terrible, since she's a fighter..so that's one cat-fight a referee wouldn't want to be involved with. WWF anyone?

Wait, what the hell. I'm suppose to be mad. Got distracted since my sister and my other best friend online are talking to me. On the bright note, it's nice to know that I don't hold grudges that long anymore. Or at least I get distracted from being angry for a second.

Anyways, this is the last time that she and I will talk, for now.
"Are you going to be cool with her still after this?" is what my other friend asked.
Of course, I forgive and forget now. I wouldn't throw away everything we had just because we argued tonight. Arguments are part of life, unfortunately. You learn things and what did I learn with my argument with her?

That she is scared of losing me as her best friend as I am from losing her...
Wait, I guess I am a bit mad still since right now, I feel that I couldn't care less..hah.
Since these kinds of ups and downs happen in friendships, for tonight..
Just let me be mad.

Cannot Be Used.

2010-06-29T21:51:00.001-07:00

Don't try to rip me off with your bull.
Just what kind of trick are you trying to pull?
Sure, we're friends--close friends.
But now it actually depends.

No, I don't blame this silly issue.
Now I'm about to tell the story so grab a tissue.
Distance kills and that what you chose.
Although from the get-go you know I would oppose.

I said "Your life would be miserable"
and yet you think your life over there would be so compatible.
Mark my words, things will change for the worst
Especially when your lies are not rehearsed.

From way back, it has always been us catering to you.
It must have seemed lovely because you can't bid that habit adieu
Always taking things for granted,
Now even your little mini-me is not wanted.

Try to see things in our perspective.
Get outside the thought that you can always be so collective.
Taking or using things
But that's never going to happened now that you spread your wings.

You chose to leave.
Now everything that you want from us are something you can't ever receive.

Caught!

2010-06-27T22:29:00.001-07:00

So much to do, so little time.
I'm trying to figure out how to get this obsession out of my mind.
Every single day; for every minute, for every second
Is there even a time for my reality? Now that I mentioned.

It will go away, slowly but surely
But I see it only growing steadily.
What to do? Obviously confused.
But enjoying it regardless and stays amused.

Oh dear, this obsession is going to get the best of me.
Head in clouds and couldn't be free
It will die, it will die..is what I wish.
Yet somehow I got caught by a fish.

I can't break free from the fish's spell.
It seems more stable than those clam shells.
Stuck in this ocean as a bait
Looks like I have nothing to do but wait.

The ocean is vast and full of surprises.
Now I only see myself with tons of disguises.
I try to turn back but to my dismay
The ocean is too strong for me to just look away

I set this trap up myself
Now see me calling for help.
Never play around the ocean shore
If you don't want to be under a fish's core.

This is not as straightforward as it seems
I only speak in codes and about my dreams.
There seems to be no progression
Because clearly this obsession is now my passion.

I Love to Laugh

2010-06-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

I laughed at your face because it's ugly.
I laughed at the way you talk because you try to act cool.
I laughed at the way you dress because you aint got no style.
I laughed at your jokes not because they are funny, but because they are too corny.
I laughed at your life because its senseless.
I laughed at your pride because you don't got one.
I laughed at your logic because they are irrational.
I laughed at your hope because its just a false light.
I laughed at your effort because they are meaningless.

Lastly, I laughed at myself for even tolerating those things when I see you.

Once Again.

2010-06-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

Just for the heck of it, I'll post my disclaimer once more:

Beware:

Due to Jea's unconditional stalking incidents, she has developed stalker senses. Please refrain from following her if you do not wish to suffer from painful side effects.

My Horror Flick

2010-06-06T22:58:00.001-07:00

You know of Nightmare on Elm Street? When you think its over, it's really not.
He comes back.

Apparently, I have a Freddie Kreuger in my life.
I thought it was REALLY over, then BAM; it came back.
I really want to think its over, but one of my sources said it's not.

Since when was my life a horror movie?
I always have been living a fairytale life, and now it turned into a horror flick.
Thanks Freddie! -_-
I can deal with Fairytales' dilemmas, but when its a scary movie flick,
I usually stop the film before it gets worst , but where the hell is the stop button in my life?

Today was just crazy; he turned on his OA mode and that's just annoying.
He is clearly distorted if he can't get THE message.
No hope--nothing will happen--do you even need common sense for that one?
Don't even try to compare yourself to a classic gentleman
because a gentleman would STOP if they see the lady they pursue annoyed as hell.

I'm frustrated that I couldn't even get my thoughts straight.
Usually, I have a lot more things to say at my own pace
Don't let me write a rhyme just so I can slap your face.

No style-no zest-no looks, what's there to like?
The ugliness wreaks from inside and out, so go on and take a hike.
You can't see yourself in the way others perceived you
You are blinded by your own desires and you might lose your crew
You think this is just a game? Well, you fell under your own trap
Now see if I even give a crap.

There's no free throws in life, gotta earn things your way.
I'm someone you can NEVER earn since You are wayyy out of your league, but hey!
You can suck it up to avoid being the fool.
Although you are kinda digging your own grave by acting too cool
Stop the pretense of holding on to your last hope;
you never had one to begin with and that's something you should cope.

See now? I ended up pulling a rhyme.
That's how frustrated I am with this horror flick's crime.
I'm not the type of person that will spell out everything for you.
Why? because my words shall stab you.

Truth hurts and reality can kill.
Try not to overdose yourself with a pill.
My words are harsh and I prick when irritated
So better run away and lose those hopes before you turn incapacitated.

If things can't turn out for good,
Expect my harsher mood.
Watch out as I turn this nightmare around,
Don't make me burrow you underground.
Turn back and forget while you can, and let me be
because this horror movie's murderer might end up being me.

Not Quite There

2010-05-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

Recovered.

Still, my pulse rate is not going any down.
125. Not good.
Tests showed that I'm dehydrated, gotta drink lots of liquids.

Still, my heart rate will not go down.
And there's one reason.

Super Junior's Bonamana!

Gahh. See how smexy Donghae in there?
Pulse rate is getting more abnormal.

Thank you Super Junior and my forever bias Donghae.

Sick Sick Sick

2010-05-11T13:29:00.000-07:00

When you get sick...
you get really sick....
I'm talking about getting 102 fever + sore throat, ugh.
Worst feeling ever.

And perfect timing!
So much cramming and papers to do!
Wow, sometimes, I really wonder about my luck =/
Lately, it doesn't seem to go my way.

I need to pick up a lucky penny or something to turn my luck around.
I blamed those black cats who sings to me every night! XD
They have been meowing next to my bedroom window.

I need to get back in shape.
My size 0 jeans are too lose on me =0 -_-

Where is thy sunglasses?!

2010-04-15T13:31:00.000-07:00

I bought new sunglasses...then after two days...
i lost it T_T

Sigh, the feeling of remorse.

so much for $10, i didn't even get to used it that much.
Blahh, I always forget things.
I need a cure for this short term memory loss.

I re-checked my head over and over again..
just in case my sunglasses was on top of my head..
but to no avail..
sigh..

Deadly Night

2010-04-10T13:45:00.000-07:00

Just when I decided to sleep kinda early, things did not go as planned.

It was a friday night and I decided to sleep before midnight because I had to get up
and babysit a little monster early in the morning.

I was already tired, so I knew I'd crashed...But then it happened -_-

A deadly gas had invavded my room and boy oh boy did it spread too fast.
A skunk had find it in their best interest to exhale an intoxicating scent...
right on my bedroom window..which is next to my bed -_-

I covered myself with a blanket but it was no use, the smell was just there.
I was so mad.and I planned to just sleep on the living room...
but I want my bed ya'know?

So I put up with it, eck. I covered myself with two blankets.
When I woke up in the morning the deadly stinge was still lurking around.
Didn't know a skunk's weapon can stay long like that..really invaded my private space, sigh.

So much for a dreamy night...I slept in a poison chamber =/

S'been Awhile

2010-04-09T17:08:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the sudden hiatus.
Its spring break ya'know.

For the mean time, go HYORI!
Anyone seen her MV Teaser?
The Queen is Back so step aside!

She owns the center stage and will pawn anyone who dare steals the spotlight.

Statistics Mid-Terms

2010-03-30T17:36:00.001-07:00

Oh man, never in my life..did I feel very anxious about taking an exam.
No matter what subject it is, I breeze through it with no fail.
But man, Statistics midterms?! Probabilities are NOT my thing.
And it just so happens that we are on that chapter.

I tried studying for it because I cannot afford to get even a C on this test.
So I opened my book last night and thought I should cram for it.
Then BAM! I realize that I do not know how to study 0_0
I always pass and get my A's with not much effort, that when I actually
need my A..I do not know how to get it..with studying.

So I read my notes, and try to do the example problems..
Then I tried doing more problems on the book..but I totally do not get it.
Why is it that when the teacher shows you how to work on a problem,
on the book the questions they give you are in no way similar to what the teacher has shown.

I have no problems with Statistics, its just those darn probabilities.
They kill me and I just don't get them.

"You have 2 dice in your hand. What is the probability that the first dice will roll and odd number and the second one would land on a 6?"

Like I care about the percentage on which number my dice would roll!
Just roll the dice and play monopoly!

Math never applies to real life.... (well, stats is not really math)
So I walked into a building and saw a triangular painting.
My first thought would be "I wonder what's the SIN, COS, TAN of that painting? Hm.."

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............... yeah, like that would ever happen.

Second-Hand Weed

2010-03-30T13:21:00.000-07:00

So who knew that there's a sitting arrangement in college?
In my ECD class there is.
And lucky me get to sit with this girl.
and oh my gosh...does she smell weed everyday!

When I sit next to her my mind goes off to see rainbow and ponies.
Swear, second hand weed..every tuesday and thursday.

Before, I thought that the weed smell was from a skunk.
Then I started asking why some smell like skunk.
Was it their entertainment to be farted on by a skunk?
My friends laughed at me and told me that "that" awful smell was weed.
That's how I knew how weed smelled like and it smells like crap.
Addicts, how can you stand sniffing that garbage?
Gives me headaches every single time.

Well, of course there's the possibility that the girl that's sitting next to me doesn't smoke weed. It could be because she finds it entertaining to be a skunk's toilet bowl. But man, two more months of smelling that crap? sheesh -_-

Apparently, my ECD class turned into a weed class.
Don't be surprise if I turn out to be a hippie by the end of May.

Disclaimer

2010-03-29T11:35:00.000-07:00

Stalkers know me from my back view.
Interesting.
Well, that's why they are called stalkers -_-

I should give those guys some medicine if all they're going to do is follow me.

Beware:

Due to Jea's unconditional stalking incidents, she has developed stalker senses. Please refrain from following her if you do not wish to suffer from painful side effects.

Disclaimer said it all.

Those Idioms

2010-03-29T11:04:00.000-07:00

Those sayings..sometimes they make sense and sometimes they don't.

When you are stressed out, they say that you have "to go really far away from your problems to see how small they really are" Does that saying actually work? It is very situational and for me, it never works. Once I stray and forget about my problems, I will forget about them completely..then BAM! the consequesnces will occur. Then i'll have that thought.."man, I should have figure out the solution beforehand."

So then when I'm stressed what do I do? There's the saying of "going with the flow", which never work as well. Going with the flow is giving your conformity--
You don't know where you're headed but still tag along with the waves.
How about I just follow the wind?
If I follow the wind, I still wouldn't know where I'm heading,
but at least I can stop at my own free will if I'm not too sure of the road I'm following.
Its better than being carried away, not knowing what's ahead and when to stop.

So I follow the wind, then I keep following until I come to a dead end. What now?
They say, "turn back when you reached a wall, to learn what you have done wrong and to not do it again."

If I ever do that then it would mean that I would have to retrace my steps..
Relive my mistakes..and I'm all for NOT regretting anything; but learning from it.
So what the heck..I ain't turning back once I have come across a great ordeal
just to figure out the right way by looking back.
Heck, I'll get a bulldozer and ram that wall out of my life.

See, those idioms are pretty much senseless in my complicated life.
Or am I being too logical and delusional?
Well, I did try them a few times, but it didn't quite work out.
idioms are for idiots..? They say.

So if burdens are too heavy and lil 'ol me can't go on anymore..what shall I do?
Simple.
If the world pushes me down on my knees, I would just pray.

The List.

2010-03-25T12:49:00.001-07:00

Those days when so much things are piled up in your schedule.
When the term "so much to do, so little time" applies
Wishes that time can somehow just stop for an instant
Thinking of taking some yoga lessons again
Taking Tylenol before going to bed
Wants some time alone
Wishes to hug thy teddy bear every single moment that passes
Wants to just stay in the shower for some warm bath

.....yeah.
If that ever applies to me, then its a given:

I'M FRUSTRATED.

..and apparently, the list very much applies for today..and with the past few days.

Reunited..Feels That Good?

2010-03-22T15:21:00.000-07:00

So then I heard of a good news on Sunday..supposedly.
There's this three people in my life, who had been involved in my usual Sundays.
Then they left because:

Person #1: bought a Treasure Island on Atlantis which seems so impossible to visit everyday.
Person #2: mandatory school & LWN..? Who knows.
Person #3: Just left because everyone else had.

Then they are all coming back again, though it sounds surreal I can picture it.

Except for Person #2, he's always up to something, usually its not something good =D
You see him doing something, you think there's progression along the way,
but in the end he leaves things undone. He's like a criminal on bail.
He goes TNT for awhile, and when someone pays his bail, he shows up.
Don't get me wrong, I love the guy.

Then there's Person #3 who's mind is still in the gutter as to always go with the flow.
He heard of people leaving then he leaves, then they come back, he decides to come back.
See? Going with the flow, I wonder how it would be like if his mind is stuck in a canal.
I mean, that's the worst thing that can happen.
Since his mind has been flowing in a stagnant water polluted by Person #1 =D

Person #1 already kicked things off Sunday.
Many can tell that his heart really belongs with pens and whiteouts.
Despite having two coconuts in a bucket, he knows how to manage his time
when it comes to getting his pencil sharpened.
The reunion happened because of his influence...?..you can say.
He's like the mastermind of everything. I don't want to attached the word "evil" though
because usually his purpose is good; but when he is up to something...it can be worst than Person #2.

Although I blatantly put things out like that, I am very happy for their come back.
My metaphors and similes might have sounded rude, but that's not my reason at all.
That's just how I roll.

If you asked me, there's four more people who shaped me in regards to being effective in the office. One has his heart set in San Jose, Two sung his way to Riverbank, Third is busy taking care of his family and Fourth, where did she go? Probably exploring the world for a new cellphone.

I love these people although I can't show it most of the time.
Omitting Family, they are my top choice for influencing me...good or bad.

But just to clarify because Person #1 might say something:
Physically nothing changed to me; but mentally, these people have seen me grown..i think.

Ohmygulay.

2010-03-22T15:11:00.000-07:00

ECD 51 - 4-pages observation due on Wednesday.
ENG 1A - 6 pages of rough draft for essay # 2 is due on Wednesday as well.
Statistics - Math lab due tomorrow.

Wow. I'm packed. My computer chosed the perfect time to crashed on me.
How many of those papers are done? NONE.
Did I at least start on them? No. -_-

Progressed: 0%
Days Left: 1-2 0_0
Drive to do the homeworks: -100% -_-

Procastination, baby!

Hello Stanger.

2010-03-19T22:03:00.000-07:00

There are times when we act like best friends. In reality, we are just friends.
Now, we act like total strangers.
Not even bothering to say a simple hello.

How did it get to that point?
I mean, we always have these days.
And a text from you saying "we never talk anymore" cleans things up.
then we start catching up with each other.. then back to being strangers.
Why oh why...one word.

Annoyance. There are just those days when you get into my nerves.
I know that I really should put up with you, since you are still in your sprung stage.
But what about me? Do you really expect me to tolerate such immaturity?

The things you do to get my attention bothers me.
We're already friends, what's so difficult with saying "hello"..?
I get it, I intimidate people.
However, you of all people, should know that that's not my intentions.

So then you brag with your nonsense, and I just quit.
I guess we're better off as strangers if you don't stop being so ignorant.
You know well that your simple hints of getting my attention bothers me.
So why insist on doing it?

Still, waiting for that text: "we never talk anymore"
But this time when I receive that text, I have my reply set and ready:
"because I don't want to"
So stranger, let's remain as strangers...for now.

Until you show me your diploma in regards to you graduating in your immaturity.
Get a sub-teacher, because I refused to be your adviser.

-_-

2010-03-19T15:20:00.000-07:00

FRUSTRATED...

Big Time.

Ugh.

Departure

2010-03-13T18:38:00.000-08:00

I really have no troubles with saying goodbye.
See you soon because I know we are bound to cross paths again.

However, this goodbye bothers me.
Because she has been a huge part of what I'm doing .
Always there to help out, really quick with her wits.
Then to suddenly leave, caught me off guard.
Now I'm really bothered.

I wish for you to stay.
To not worry whether or not you can help out 24/7.
Even popping out every blue moon is fine, as long as you are still part of the team.

Dirty Secrets

2010-03-11T14:30:00.000-08:00

Gahh, people have find it in their best interest to confide in me.
Not to sound conceited, but I do not have a loose lip.
But sometimes, things they tell you..can sound very..unusual.
To the point of ...disturbance.

There are things that's better left unsaid and unheard.
I do not mind gossips, I do not start gossips but once I hear of them,
It is just human nature to listen to those stories.

But secrets can be very dirty,,, and those I mind a lot.
My head if filled with secrets and there's this one that just disturbs me.
It is something I have been knowing, but to learn more about it in details...
Totally made my sense of reason fly out of the window.
Gahhh...its bothering me. very much.

In Pain

2010-02-26T21:20:00.000-08:00

My arms have been hurting.
Maybe I have been blogging too much XD
constantly moving my mouse around, to search for news, sigh.
the pain extended to my shoulders.
I don't like this.

Then I have a HUGE paper to write.
I don't have the drive still~
I had like a week to do it then..
Now, 2 days. Just great.
Procrastination had gotten the best of me yet again.
Sigh.

Pain. Pain. Pain.

Someone I'm Looking Forward to

2010-02-23T20:26:00.000-08:00

Her name is Anne and there's very little info about her since she's new.
Her MV teaser came out and boyyy, i'm excited until the whole is out!

She sounds nice. I'm taking a break from k-pop idol groups for now because boy oh boy, i sure miss those k-ballads.

Brian McKnight to Hit Korea

2010-02-23T18:38:00.000-08:00

Yes!
I don't know why I'm excited, its not like I can watch it XD
I guess I'm just happy to see him back in action,
after releasing his latest album, which is full of nice r&b ballads.

Pretty sure he'll enjoy his stay.
After all, Korea's talents amazes him.
He did compliment Se7en's rendition of "One Last Cry"
and said that it was one of the best rendition he ever heard.

I have been a fan of Brian McKnight.
Right now, he is among the very few western artists that actually produces music.
Others are like...is it even music?

Man, can't believe I used to listen to those meaningless lyrics and repetitive beats.
BayFunktion and etc., I was a huge fan.
But seriously, that type of music is just..not even music.
Get what I mean?

I'd rather go back to those male/female groups.
Bring back Spice Girls, Backstreet Boys, Nsync, 97 Degrees, TLC.
I really prefer that era than what America's mainstream is offering now.

Sigh

2010-02-23T18:35:00.000-08:00

LAZY

I have an English paper to do, but I don't have the drive to even start it.

I'm slowly losing my focus, man.
Back to level 0 again.
and that goes for my diet too.

LETS MAKE THINGS CLEAR

2010-02-18T16:17:00.000-08:00

All you antis who have nothing else to do but bash.
This was a GREAT and FUN performance:

First, the mask thing was not stolen from Jabba.
It has been a Korean pop thing for decades now.
Korean BBoy have been using that style for years, even before Jabba.

Second, I don't get why people are tripping at the fact that Super Junior used Lyle's choreography.
You criticized them for using a someone else choreography for like 35 sec.
But you don't criticized 2PM for using Chris Brown's moves for their whole performance?
WTFFFF. Hypocritical. People just hate losing.
Super Junior deserved the MVP award. I love 2PM (Junsu bias XD) but I enjoyed Super Junior's performance better.

Besides, Lyle's tweeted "Don't trip about it" he asked antis to actually STOP.
If the person himself said it was okay, why do people insist on going on with this?
Why don't you tell Chris Brown that his moves were also copied?
I thank ALLKPOP for making this into a huge deal.
they are really, Super Junior's #1 antis.
and people are gullible enough to believe them; not even thinking for themselves.
ELFs Boycott ALLKPOP!

Jea, What's for Dinner?

2010-02-14T21:06:00.001-08:00

Potato Cakes

That's right.
My sister and I have been attempting to make them.
Ever since Family Outing when Hyori made some.
It looked very yummy~
So tonight's dinner is potato cakes.
Lots and lots of them.

My sister kept on peeling and grating them,
She didn't realized she was peeling too much.
Oh well, more for me.
But then that just completely screws up my diet.
Back to level 0, here we go again, sigh.

My Sundays

2010-02-14T21:00:00.000-08:00

As usual, its always a long day for me.
I spend my entire morning and afternoon at our Church.
Then usually on evenings I stay out with my second family.
Today I get to go home at least, restttttt~ (not really)

The I remembered I have a huge quiz on my English and ECD class--damn.
I have been lagging so much, I lost the drive the study.
And tomorrow is a holiday so no school, but I still have to wake up early.
There's going to be a bowling tournament, and I'm attending.
How many strikes will I get? Nahhh~
I'll strike out even before getting there.

The Cost of it ALL

2010-02-12T22:08:00.000-08:00

Once you're attached to an addiction,
it's hard to focus on the other things in life.
No, I'm not referring to my Donghae-addiction, (he's my GOOD addiction)
I'm referring to something else.

I have completely lost the drive in doing anything at all.
Heck, I don't even update here anymore when I was thinking of changing my layout.
Sigh, I hate when this happens to me.
I also promised myself that I would clean my room once a week.
I doubt I'll do that tomorrow. I dislike this.

It's nice to find a hobby but when it comes to me,
the after effect is just too much.
I seriously forget everything else.

JeaBanana signing off now~

P.S.

You see my advertisement up there?
yes, KPOPLIVE.COM
I'm a blogger over there so my daily kpop spazz here will be gone (not really)
If you see SparklingDiamond as the author then no duh I wrote it.

The only difference is that I don't put my Banana-touch in it,
since it's a kpop news portal site--my bias and bashing are gone!
but I still have this blog ;]

20 Secs of Gooness~

2010-02-10T16:34:00.000-08:00

Lee Donghae is my biggest distraction ever!
He is just gorgeous. Plain and simple.
I had busied myself with school and such,
yet I always find time to distract myself with him XD

A picture is worth a thousand words wouldn't you say?

and the 20 sec goodness of my life so far?
this fancam: (which I SO wish to be longer!!)

Omona~

Omo~

2010-02-09T18:20:00.000-08:00

VERY QUICK AND A NON-BIAS KPOP SITE!
GET YOUR NEWS FRESH FROM HERE:

www.kpoplive.com

They bring you very refreshing kpop news.
Without any biasness, hate, favorism nor profanity.
And they credit their sources and do not claim it as their own.
Not to mention, they give free goodies around ;] so check it out!
Finally right?

Kdrama Rides the Waves to Japan

2010-02-09T15:25:00.000-08:00

With the k-pop scene dominating overseas music charts,
even K-dramas have made it to the scene.
This is not the first time that Korea has gotten the recognition in regards to their dramas.
Heck, their dramas was the start of the hallyu wave.

Many Korean Dramas had already landed and became quite popular in Japan such as Jewel in the Palace, Winter Sonata and now just finished airing My Lovely Kim Sam Soon.
Fuji TV will feature more Korean Dramas on a special time slot, which will be referred to as "Hallyu Alpha". They have also claimed that they will strive to keep bringing popular Korean Dramas in Japan to be able to get more new fans.

In regards to this, we already know how recent K-dramas have been piling up with idol groups.
Will this also be a start for K-pop to wave over Japan's music charts too?
That's a bit ambitious since breaking out in Japan is difficult, but why not right?

Sigh

2010-02-09T15:22:00.000-08:00

Oh jeez. I can't believe that it'a almost 2 weeks and my computer is still broken =/
What's even more surprising is that I didn't die of boredom.
Sadly, my life revolves around this square screen in front of me.
All day you bet I'm in front of the computer screen.
And nooo, I go out too, just at midnight, when I don't really need the computer,
because there's nothing left to do when midnight strikes.
Man, I need my computer back ASAP!

2am will not let go of number one spot

2010-02-08T14:53:00.000-08:00

2AM has been garnering much attention due to the fact of their individual activities and their latest single "Even if I Die, I Will Not Let You Go".
The four boys are known to showcase their vocal prowess and this song has done them justice once again.

With the current kpop mainstream of dance songs, who would have thought that 2Am's comeback single would reach the mobile charts so soon?
Even throwing off SNSD's "Oh" of their number one spot, not only in mobile charts but also in Nate, Cyworld BGM and LiveBell chart.
Not to mention, they are closely behind SNSD on Mnet and Melon charts.
Will they catch up to them soon?

A music distributor of IloEntertainment said,
“In this current So Nyeo Shi Dae ‘Oh!’ fever, being up #1 on mobile and background music charts holds a great meaning. It means that the song has been acknowledged by music fans and the masses. Furthermore, we are talking about a ballad song by male idol group up against the girlgroup dance song. And girlgroup dance songs have been doing very well since 2009.”

2AM has proven that one's music is still capable of reaching number even if kpop ballads popularity has gone down. Surely this time, 2AM has gotten the recognition they long deserve.

Wonder Girls "Tell Me" Chinese version

2010-02-08T13:40:00.000-08:00

After just breaking out in the U.S., Wonder Girls have clearly gone global.
Any part of the world, we want Nobody but the Wonder Girls.
With the recent news of Sun Mi's temporary leave from the group,
Wonder Girls Asian domination did not stop.

With Hae Lim as a temporary replacement for Sun Mi,
China was their next target for another Wonder domination.

Just earlier today, a Chinese single of Tell Me was released.

Sounds the same? Not exactly.
Sohee's infamous "omona" was not there and Yoobin's rap was clearly in English.
Still, I don't know about you but I clearly miss this song.

T-ara Repackaged Album

2010-02-05T12:02:00.000-08:00

Set your date T-ara fans and all those who enjoyed their album,
as of February 26th they will released a repackaged album that will feature a new single:
"Because of You I Go Crazy"

Their latest track is not something like "Bo Peep Bo Peep" nor "Like the Beginning"
-- T-ara's management stated it is a completely new feel.
I'm curious to see and hear their new track, are you?

Despite T-ara having to halt their promotions because of So-yeon's H1N1 encounter
and Jiyeon's tight schedule due to filming, this new single will surely make their fans happy.
So mark your calendars as T-ara sure knows how to bring nice music in the industry.

Wonder Girls without Sun Mi

2010-02-05T11:43:00.000-08:00

Although everyone is shocked with Sun Mi's temporary leave,
Wonder Girls China promotions was not hatled although their U.S. promotions did.

In China, Sun Mi's temporary replacement, Hae Lim filled her spot.
What do you think? I know it is just a fancam but then the audio is not that bad.
(sorry, I couldn't embed oit ^^)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_KR6HcmzcFU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gX-Zj-f2iaU

My thoughts: I'm loving how clear Wonder Girls speak in English now.
The whole performace seems vacant, maybe because we are so used to hearing Sun Mi's wholesome voice.
Hae Lim's voice in comparison is softer, and vocally I haven't really heard her sing much.

Notice how I keep stating temporary, because as much as you guys want to stan someone
for Sun Mi's absence, it is just temporary, at least until she finishes her studies.
After all, Nobody Chinese version teaser still features dear Sun Mi.

DBSK's Dilemma.

2010-02-05T11:12:00.000-08:00

"Asia's number one leading male idol group"

Despite that title, who would have ever thought that there will be some family feud with this successful group?

For those curious eyebrowers and fans who have been following this case,
it seems as though there hasn't been new news of their case lately.
We all know how these lovely boys have been successfully promoting their new single in Japan
and many are wondering if they are just going to stay there.

Cassies would rather keep DBSK in Japan where all of them are together because
they are under another management, Avex.
However, things might get messy once again as DBSK's contract with Avex will soon expire in June.
Being on the top of Japan charts, you would guess that they would sign another contract with Avex.
However, renewing their contract in Japan is something SMEnt have to decide--not the boys.
If their contract is not extended, then promotions and activities in Japan will be put to stop.

Surely, things aren't looking good for these boys.
Would you say now that SMent really want to just drop these boys?
How much do you want to bet?
Considering the rumors of SMent debuting new groups and making their debuted talents promote endlessly.

"Always keep the faith" as we wait and see how things unfold from this time on.

cr:Korea Economic Daily

Hankyung VS SM Entertainment Part II

2010-02-05T09:37:00.000-08:00

Following DBSK's trio footsteps, Hankyung of Super Junior has also filed a lawsuit against SMEnt in regards to having an unfair contract.

Hankyung's court trial began on January 8th of this year.
The results are still unknown although there is a possibility of Hankyung regaining his freedom as early in March according to the law.

"According to Korean Law, when the plaintiff made a contract invalid litigation, proceedings usually need to go through a three-step trial; the first trial, second trial and third trial. The first and second trials need a period of 4-8 months each, while the third trial has no explicit period, it may even take more than 8 months. In order to prevent SM from using the delay tactics, Hankyung has applied for the 'Effective Suspension of Contract Agreement' to the Seoul Central District Court at the same time, ruling for this plead would be known as early as March or April 2010. This also means that if the appeal is successful, Hankyung would be able to regain freedom in advance by March 2010. "

Great turn of events would you say? At least there seems to be hope for those who are chained in the vicious grasps of entertainment industries. It seems like his case is processing faster than DBSK due to the fact that there is no third party involved unlike DBSK.

If the trial is said to be in favor of Hankyung, would that means he'll get out of Super Junior because his contract would then be terminated?
No one is for certain of the future although their fans are hopeful yet doubtful at the same time
since Hankyung is said to be more into acting than singing.
"13elieve" is what many ELFs would say right now.

cr: Sina
Translation: viragis@sj-world.net

VIRUS ATTACKED.

2010-02-04T10:14:00.000-08:00

My PC is down, man it.
I spend all my time, well, most of my time online,
so having a virus in my PC is a no-no situation for me.

Sorry guys! I won't be online for the meantime.
at least now I don't have a distraction with my school works.
But i really need my PC up asap!

No wonder I like BEG

2010-01-28T22:18:00.000-08:00

My favorite BEG member, Narsha just picked my most biased guy.
Lee Donghae =D

She stated in SGB, “I saw a predebut video of him, and I was surprised by his good looks. I think he was more handsome back then.”

Many men out there must be feeling envious of dear Donghae.
Not to mention, Narsha is really popular among celebrity men.
Nice taste Narsha ;]

K-POP Top 5 Pretty Boys

2010-01-27T22:02:00.000-08:00

Ranks of k-pop boys who would look pretty as a girl:

5. Kim Heechul -

It is a given than he would make it on the list.
Ever saw those photoshopped pictures of him in a lady's body?
It is quite fitting, who would have thought he can be prettier than some girls.
I was actually expecting him to rank higher than this spot though.
Kim Heechul of Super Junior knows how to make anyone insecure.

4. G-Dragon

Mistahhh leadahhh! With such a cute face, it is automatic that he would get in the list.
During one of Big Bang's concert, he cosplayed as a girl, and GD with a long wig and dress,
woahh, totally a cute girl.

3. Taemin

Of course he should be in the list. With a baby face like him, he almost instantly will
look very cute as a girl. He has quite a refreshing and young face and he has already
wore a women's wig before, and swear, if you didn't know it was Taemin, you would
think it was a real female.

2. Young Saeng

Really? I really do not agree with this one. I mean he does looked feminine in comparison
to his SS501's brothers, but if he is included on this list, then I should say at least placed
him on lower ranks--because honestly, I think Taemin and Heechul looks prettier as a
girl than him.

1. HongKi

Hands down, Hong Ki is such a cutie. Although I really think as a girl, someone
can beat him. I love his cute and outgoing personality and maybe that is why he went up
the scale despite the fact that Taemin of Shinee is on the list too.

source: arirang

Marry U, Beautiful Donghae

2010-01-26T18:35:00.000-08:00

Lee Donghae ♥
and yet I found another worthy fancam of Donghae's solo "Beautiful" =D
self-written, self-composed and self-choreographed. gosh.

Unexpected Turn of Events.

2010-01-25T18:10:00.000-08:00

They leave me rather speechless.
If things do not go as plan, I tend to just shrug it off, but this one I can't.
My whole dilemma was left in vain.
All those times I stressed out about it, then to turn into this?!

I have said before how I want to keep things the way they are.
However, there are things that meant for a change.
With that said, I was prepared to let go and moved on--and I was alright with that.

Then BOOM. The "thing" that wanted to let go decided to come back on its own.
And it came back more...clingy?
It's as if though I was the reason the thing could not move forward.
Now, I am raining with compliments here and there.

Omona, I kinda wanted this to happen but at the same time I don't.
I really do not know what I want..but not this, not this.
Now I just gotta try to treasure what I have and welcome what's coming..?
Naw, I don't fly like that. I just don't open my gates that easily.

The thing that wanted to come out in the first place is now trying to get back in.
And real talk, it is more persistent than ever.
Sigh, I gotta deal with this one again.

Just Cope With It.

2010-01-23T18:44:00.000-08:00

That's what I realized and that is what summing up my overall thinking.
All I have to do is to focus on what I have--my new years resolution anyways.
If I keep insisting for the things that pleases me the most,
then I will be hurt, for it is such a selfish thing to do on my behalf.
I can't keep everything around me just for fun and for my pleasure

I am pretty much content, but not happy.
If I try to be happy, then I will succumb to greediness.
I already have many shortcomings, I do not wish to add more to it.

This thing will bother me still, although I have to try to cope with it.
In time, it will be less painful... or not.
Regardless, I am okay.

Let's take a break from Singing and start Studying, Wonder Girls Style

2010-01-22T18:14:00.000-08:00

Sun Mi of Wonder Girls will take a temporarily leave from group activities.

Many are probably thinking that once you have your career settled,
school is just not the place for you anymore.

However, that does not apply to our very own Sun Mi of Wonder Girls.
She is going to postpone her musical career so she can go back to school.
As a young successful entertainer, you could say it's a really brave choice for her to be able to choose her studies than her current career.

What's even more delightful is that JYPE and her members are fully supporting her.
However, how does Wonderfuls feel regarding this situation?
After all, didn't Wonder Girls just storm out both the West and the East?
They have totally gone global.

So what will happen to our lovely remaining Wonder Girls?
A trainee of three years named Lim will be filling in for Sun Mi's spot.
Sun Mi will still do activities with Wonder Girls until the end of February.
Of course, they are still opening for American singer, Justin Bieber.

JYPE claimed that Wonder Girls are known to be a five-member group in the U.S.,
so it was just evident that they have to choose someone to fill in Sun Mi's spot.

So how will Wonderfuls take this?
Of course as much as they want to support her education,
another Wonder Girl leaving is a bit tragic.
But will they approve of Lim and see her as a worthy representative for Sun Mi of Wonder Girls?
I bet many are as curious as me.

Wasted Time.

2010-01-22T18:07:00.000-08:00

I seriously need a job.
There's nothing to do, and I really want to help out with the expenses at home.

Supposedly going to a party tonight.
In this storm? You crazy.
I am not in the best of mood either, I might see something that can just tick me off right now.

I am looking for an excuse, but I haven't got any.
I am usually good with these things, lies and excuses--although I'm not too proud of it.
But my friends once told me that my skills are getting rusty.
How hard is it to bail out to a party?
It's either my skills are indeed rusty or I'm just too lazy to think of an excuse out.

I guess I'll be dragging my but out of this house.
oh yeah, anyone going to k-pop festival this year?

My Sunshine in this Storm.

2010-01-21T21:27:00.000-08:00

THIS NEWS regarding Kim Jeong Hoon or better known as John-Hoon in Japan and Howl for Korean Drama OSTs.

His fans have been waiting impatiently for his 8th Maxi Single and John-Hoon will be releasing his newest piece "Rainy Flash" on January 20th for his Birthday! The main track for that matter has become a rather sad ballad . The single will be released in a first press edition as well as a regular edition - whereas the jacket covers will be different for either edition. Moreover, there will be a special campaign for sending John-Hoon Birthday messages - this campaign will be available for those who purchase both editions of the single "Rainy Flash" and will be received directly by the artist himself. All the message, which should be including a name or a nick name, will then be published in the booklet of the first press edition of the planned release this autumn.

Say what? I couldn't believe that with all this rain pouring, I will get to hear his lullabies.
His voice is the perfect thing to listen to in this storm.
yes, it was that same guy who sang and made us fall in love with Boys Before Flowers OST "Love U". Wasn't his voice just too dreamy?

Kim Jeong Hoon is recently doing his military service.
So with this news, it was quite surprising. He already released a mini-album last year.
I am hoping it is not a hoax. I surely miss this guy's works.

Survival of the Fittest.

2010-01-21T17:56:00.001-08:00

First week of college is always dreadful.
All these students who have forgotten to register and trying to add in a full class already.
Sigh, so I, a registered student who never forgets to register,
sits my butt down on a chair waiting til all these students get accommodations.

Even if you're among the first student who arrived in class wanting to register,
it still falls on the student's priority number.
Seems kind of unfair for all those old students returning to take advantage of that privilege.

What made this week dreadful was the fact that first week of college, it was storming.
A strong storm here in California? Very unlikely. Mr. weather man wasn't kidding.
I prepared myself for the worst, but I did not know that it was really that bad outside.
I probably used three umbrellas and they all have gotten eaten up by the strong winds.
If only I could miss the first week of class, but that's unlikely.

So that is why my first week was awful.
The storm and the rush from other students.
The small me was trying not to get flatten out by those running kids,
and holding on to my dear life to not get blown away by the strong winds.
Survival of the fittest.

I survived, but I definitely need to get fit, for next week will be the same. sigh.

Plagiarized song yet again?

2010-01-21T17:37:00.000-08:00

Blue Bird by a band called Ynot.
Maybe its the fact that they are an underground artists that no one really knows them.
However, we all know how netizens just know this things.
All the beauty and ugly, all the things behind close doors in regard to kpop.

Apparenltly, C.N.Blue's debut single, I'm A Loner, is being suspected of plagiarism.
Talk about deep controversy from a rookie band who's getting lots of love from that song.
As of now they are only speculations and under going process.

I, myself find the two songs easily similar, and the rule about plagiarism?
If at least 7 bars are the same, then the song is plagiarized.

Arirang Top5 Korean Entertainers for 2010

2010-01-20T22:21:00.000-08:00

5. Goo Hara ( 구하라 ) of KARA ( 카라 )
4. Dong-ho ( 동호 ) of U-KISS
3. Woo-young ( 우영 ) of 2PM
2. Chang-min ( 창민 ) of 2AM
1. Lee Teuk (이특) of SJ ( 슈퍼주니어)

I always had my doubts with Arirang's listing, but this list is quite promising.

We all love Hara in Invincible Youth. She is able to be outside her box for a change.
She is funny and silly.

Dong-ho? I guess he is trying to more out there.
He is getting attention and thus giving U-Kiss more recognition.

Wooyoung deserves to be in top 5, no doubt.
The guy is very hilarious and knows how to go with the flow,
when it comes to riding someone else jokes.
He never gives a boring statement, always on the go.

Changmin. This one I had my doubts. I really would have pictured Jo Kwon and not him. Although he is entertaing, i prefer Jo Kwon in the number two spot. So I still always question Arirang results.

Leeteuk. Hands down. He deserves this spot. He truly is the most anticipated entertainer of 2010. Teukigayo is very hilarious. Boom made the right choice to hand down his academy to Leeteuk. He is very promising when it comes to MCing and variety shows. He definitely has the skills for it.

The TRAX comeback.

2010-01-20T22:13:00.000-08:00

The TRAX had been M.I.A. for quite awhile now.
On January 21st, they are releasing their MV teaser "가슴이 차가운 남자"
The MV includes Super Junior Heechul and f(x) Victoria.
The teaser has been receiving lots of attention when the news was released.

For all SM Town fans out there, surely this is great news.
The rock band, The TRAX will have their comeback on Music Bank on January 22.
Stay tuned and watch this awesome comeback from theirs after a long time.

No Mistake, You're Just Nice.

2010-01-20T22:05:00.000-08:00

"Actor/singer Jung Yonghwa of CNBlue has revealed the story that Super Junior Kim Heechul had said that he's nice.

On the show MBC "Golden fishery - Radio star" which was aired on January 20th, Jung Yonghwa together FT.Island Lee Hongki, 2AM Jokwon & Lee Changmin were the guests. When talking about the mistake he had made during MC-ing for last year SBS Gayo daejeon, Jung Yonghwa said "It was such a big stage so I'm really sorry"

He continued with "Since Hongki was in the middle of talking with Kim Heechul-sshi via the phone so he had asked him if I did host the show well or not, and because I was beside him (Hongki) so he (Heechul) couldnt bear to say I didnt do well so he said 'Yonghwa is nice' " which made everybody laughing."

cr: evanesco@sj-world.net

No need for explanations. It just made me laugh.
Heechul is a C.N.Blue fan.
Since his cyworld songs are from C.N.Blue's debut album.

Start 2010 with a BIG BANG.

2010-01-20T21:43:00.000-08:00

I'm pretty sure all the VIP's out there has heard of Big Bang's 2010 Big Show.
After the group has taken a year of hiatus, we are all anxious for their next appearance.

They all have been successful with their solo careers.
Start off with Taeyang, Daesung, Seung Ri, G-Dragon....wait... someone is missing!

Yes! Mr. TOP has not been able to do a solo song just yet.
He has been a featured artist for Gummy and Uhm Jung Hwa,
but he hasn't released a solo song just for himself.

Great news. With all the four having solo activities-- amidst the controversies--
VIP surely expect YG to give TOP a solo song.

In their 2010 Big Show, TOP will hype up everyone with releasing his solo song.
Now every VIP will so want to attend the concert.
As for me, I'm stuck here in the west, so fancams anyone?

Jaebom, Where Art Thou?

2010-01-20T21:36:00.000-08:00

Apparently there were speculations of him being in a Hollywood film.
Hype Nation, the same movie which rumored of Boa and Son Dambi's appearance.
Will this movie really cast Jaebom or just pull him out like the other two said artists?

Nonetheless, it is funny how the media and press try to get answers from JYPE.
Hello..? The guy quit remember? So whatever he decides, JYPE probably wouldn't know.
There were various videos of Jaebom b-boy dancing, maybe the producers discovered him.
The guy might be a but pitch-y in singing, but his dance moves are worth seeing.
But wouldn't all Hottests out there just rather wish he comes back with his 2pm boys?

When K-pop dominates.

2010-01-20T21:29:00.000-08:00

Who watched American Idol?
Did you guys see a guy named John Kim?
With the last name, I figured he was Korean.
With that said, I was expecting a down-right nice audition, and I was correct.

His voice was whole and he had great control.
Still, with those attributes what made his audition worth seeing was
the fact that Shania Twain was smitten not by his deep vocals,
but rather his deep bottom and full lips, talk about distraction.

Watch it yourself:

Even when he exited out, you see Shania checking his behind, oh boy.
Regardless, he made it to Hollywood, but will he go far?
With all those K-pop lovers out there trying their best to make K-pop into the west, maybe.

He wasn't a bad singer, to the least, his voice resembles K.Will a bit.
Now I actually have a reason to watch this show again.

This feeling won't stop.

2010-01-19T21:37:00.000-08:00

First day of college again. I wasn't ready to go back just yet.
It was raining, no--it was storming.
Thunderstorms roaring non-stop, I could hear them by my window.
It was scary, really scary.

School was wet, flooded.
How else could I enjoy it?
Especially when this feeling is eating me up.

I don't even know why it is bothering me.
Maybe because I finally realized its importance--the thing I want to keep.
Then it just slipped away like that,
leaving a hole in my selfish heart.

The Princess Disease.

2010-01-18T20:41:00.000-08:00

Every princesses doesn't want anyone from her kingdom to part from her.
No matter how selfish it seems, a princess is just used to that kind of environment.
It's how they have grown up, it has become their lifestyle.
Of course, nothing runs smoothly all the time, so let downs are inevitable.
Living in a big castle, a princess can only depend on the people around her for happiness.
What is she to do, when one by one they just leave her side?

I want to keep my kingdom the way it is.
But it can't be help, some people go beyond the castle walls,
and the saddest thing is that they don't, or never look back.

The saying "you never know how precious someone is until they are gone" is indeed true. I want to stop taking things for granted, but i find it hard.
It's there, I push it away. It goes away, I pull it back.
But I don't have the strength to always pull things back,
especially those who have drifter too far,
rather I just stand and watch it drift farther,
unable to do or say something for it to come back.
Then I sulk myself for days, and live the rest of my time lamenting.

For those who I could pull back,
I can't help but feel sorry, because they are victims of my selfishness.

In the end, those princesses seem to have everything.
They have so much, that they don't really know what they really want.
Apparently, they too, are victims of their own selfishness.

College starts tomorrow. Yikes.

C.N. Blue Album Review

2010-01-14T19:37:00.001-08:00

C.N.Blue's mini-album is out!
I listened to it, I'm amazed that I like some of their music.
I won't degrade this group just because they have the music I least prefer listening to.
But I won't be too wonderful either just because I'm Jung YongHwa-bias =]

Regardless, my taste of music won't change because of my bias-ness.
I only liked the soft and mellow music they have in the album.

Like this one: (I Will Forget You)

However, they have rather raw vocals with them, not to mention, they sing in English.
But for those songs that's not my favorite, they are not bad.
I can listen to them and not complain.

For instance, (Love Revolution)

Overall, for a rookie group, this album is really nice.
7/10 =] considering it is only a mini-album
They are already topping Mnet charts, which is a wow.
Considering the recent K-pop has been subject to auto tunes and hard beat lately.
Bands and Indie songs like these don't usually gets recognized in the K-pop scene nowadays.
It must be Shinwoo oppa's doing =D all his fans crazed for their Debut.

C.N.Blue I'm A Loner MV (with Lyrics & Translation)

2010-01-13T22:35:00.000-08:00

Just after releasing their final teaser, the MV came out.
Great, more Shinwoo oppa, but like what I said before,
their genre is not something I would listen to.
While watching the MV, the tune was actually pretty catchy.
Although it is not my type of music, I came to like this song.
And noo, not because I am YongHwa bias here XD

Someone pointed out that their style resembles Maroon 5.
And I quite agree, no wonder I am liking this song right now.
Considering Marron 5 is one of the few bands I actually listen to.

Here's the MV.

Nice..? No..? it's my current LSS.

Lyrics.

oetoriya oetoriya
oetoriya oetoriya)
bwabwa nareul bwabwa ttokbaro nae du nuneul bwa
geobwa imi neoneun ddan goseul bogo isseo
check it one two three sigyebaneulman chyeoda boneun gae
mal an haedo dareun saram saenggingeol ara

(Rap)
yojeum neon na anin dareun saramgwa mannami jatdeora
ijeneun meonjeo jeonhwado geolji andeora
narang isseul ttaeneun haruga 1chorado neon nae apeseo yojeum haneulman bodeora
Oh~ I know your mind imi neowa naui geori
meoreojin geurigo beoreojin namboda motan uri sai

# oh baby oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~ oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~
외톨이야 외톨이야 사랑에 슬퍼하고 사랑에 눈물짓는 외톨이
oetoriya oetoriya sarange seulpeohago sarange nunmuljitneun oetori
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight gaseumi apa
Oh no no no no no body knows mam molla
one two three four five six seven night su manheun bameul seumyeo nareul dallaego isseo

(Rap)
charari dareun saram saenggyeotdago naega sirheumyeon sirtago
charari soljikhage malhaejwotdamyeon nan neoreul jukdorok miwohajin anhasseul tende
check it one two three ne mareul doesaegyeo bwado irijeori dulleodaeneun geojitmariya

# Repeat
sarangi gane sarangi ddeonane
(han sarameul geurigo han sarangeul naegeneun iksukhaetdeon modeun geotdeureul)
i bami gamyeon neol jiwoyagetji
(geurae na eokjirorado neoreul jiwoyagetji nal beorin neol saenggakhamyeon geuraeyagetji)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)
oetoriya oetoriya daridiridara du~ oetoriya oetoriya ddaribiriddaradu~
oetoriya oetoriya sarange apahago sarangeul gidarineun oetori
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight kkum igil wonhae
Oh no no no no no body knows nal molla
one two three four five six seven night su manheun bameul seumyeo nunmul heulligo isseo

Translation

(I'm a loner. I'm a loner.
I'm a loner. I'm a loner.)

Look, look at me, me. Look at me straight in the eyes.
Look, you are already look at elsewhere.
Check it one two three, you only keep looking at the clock.
You don't have to tell me. I know you got someone else.

(Rap)
You've been meeting someone else often lately.
You don't even call me first anymore.
When you are with me, you would only look at the sky even if a day is a second long.
Oh~ I know your mind. The distance between you and I.
Getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.

# oh baby I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner. I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. My hurt hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

(Rap) If you had just told me honestly
that you got someone else. That you hate me.
Then I wouldn't have hated you to death.
check it one two three. Remembering your words, they are all silly lies.

# Repeat

Love is going. Love is leaving.
(One person and one love. Everything that I've been used to)
I should erase you after tonight.
(Yes, I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)

I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm crying passing many nights awake.

cr:Cnblue-sky.net

Save the Best for Last

2010-01-12T22:50:00.000-08:00

I am not anticipating for C.N.Blue's debut.
Their genre is not something in particular that I want to listen to.
What I am anticipating for is Jung Yong Hwa's debut stage.
Ever since You're Beautiful, I have been waiting til I see his face around k-pop world.
His character in that drama did kicked off Ji Hoo sunbae of Boys Over Flowers
off my number one favorite second guy.

His teaser finally came.

Shin Woo is back.

Omo~

2010-01-12T17:51:00.001-08:00

I was debating whether I should blog this or not,
but now it hit me, I have something to say about this news
so I might as well blog it.

Korean actor Lee Min-ho is set to make a comeback to the small screen in April, according to television broadcaster MBC on Monday.

The actor has been cast for the lead role in a new MBC TV series, tentatively titled "Personal Taste", which is based on a novel of the same title by Korean writer Lee Se-in.

Lee will play the role of Jun Jin-ho, who pretends to be a gay man in order to become roommates with a woman who wants to live with a gay male friend.

An MBC drama executive explained that Lee's combination of "a sophisticated image and the appeal of a man" was perfect for the part and for fulfilling female viewers' fantasies. He also added that Lee's "gripping dramatic presence and his shameless acting" will be convincing for the viewers.

"I decided to do the drama as soon as I read the script", the actor was quoted as saying.

The 22-year-old actor, who debuted in 2005, rose to stardom after starring in the smash hit "Boys Over Flowers" last year. The drama co-starred Korean actress Koo Hye-sun and idol group member Kim Hyun-joong of SS501.

"Taste" is scheduled to air around April after "The Woman Who Still Wants To Marry" ends its run.

Yup, it was that guy from Boys Over Flowers.
We all love how Goo Jun Pyo just act so hard, yet when it comes to Jan Di,
he melts down to a total silly kid. Aiisshhh~

I was waiting for his new drama and the new character he would be playing.
Who would have though that after all the attention he got from his role,
he took a break from the limelight and completely just did CFs.

Now he finally has a new drama, and what more could it be?
After Lee Minho's "I'm the boss, I'm tough" character, he actually took a role of a gay guy.
Kudos to this actor, he knows how to challenge himself well enough.

I am anticipating for this, I will clearly watch this.
I can't picture Goo Jun Pyo acting gay yet XD

My Today.

2010-01-12T17:19:00.000-08:00

Today I hung out with a friend.
We went to our college to buy our books,
to only find out we can actually rent some of them, great,
at least I can save more money now.
If only books are cheaper, then college would have been lovely.

Then right when I get home, my other friend phoned me.
Just to keep her company as she buys her own stuff.
It was nice catching up with here, s'been awhile.
I love those times, doesn't everyone?
hopefully, there's more.

today was rather..fine.
although I regretted spending on something I should have not bought.
those are one of my biggest regrets, sigh.

2PM Tik Tok released.

2010-01-11T18:26:00.001-08:00

Right when the news of 2PM releasing a new single, I have been anticipating it.
Let alone, with Ms. Yoon Eunhye too, gosh, I love her.

And here it is.

The song is pretty catchy.
The only let down is that for some apparent reason,
JYP music has been subjected to many auto tunes lately.
Not that I'm complaining, my favorite track from this group is Tired of Waiting;
and that song is pretty much auto tune all the way.

Even the rap sounded nice, because I really don't think any of 2pm's rap is worth it.
Sorry to all Taecyeon's fans out there, and Chansung, they need to rap better.
but this song's rap was fine. Let's see if this music can last in my ears.

English Translation

Nobody knows how much I miss you everyday
As I embrace you behind the stage, my heart thumps

We may greet awkwardly in front of other people
But to tell the truth, I’m the one who knows you best

The way you glare, it’s louder than words
The way you want me, the way you’re thirsty
We are so crazy for each other.

***Hook***

Secretly loving someone,
The fact that you’re my girl,
It drives me crazy everyday,
I just want, want you so much

Come here, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
When I see you, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
For the entire day, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
My heart goes Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok

Nobody knows
That we’re in love like this everyday
In my heart, there’s no room for anyone else but you

Tik, I knew it from the start
Tik, There was something about you
Tik, The way you looked at me
Tok, Your exciting love
Tok, And I’m always thirsty for that love
Tok, I always end up searching for you

You’re my only star
No one knows about it so don’t worry
Look into my eyes, I will protect you
I will stay by your side just like this

its our secret its our secret its our secret
It’s taking control of me

I’ll take the burden of our secret rendezvous
Us, proudly holding hands together just like everyone else

Even during my busy day, my work and dreams are forgotten because of
Our love ticks like a clock that doesn’t know how to stop

Baby It’s over Baby It’s over Baby It’s over

cr: musictology

LaLaLa

2010-01-11T17:37:00.000-08:00

Younha who is an artist that is both known in Japan and Korea
have released a new album.

Since her genre is not something I listen to a lot, i usually skip her songs.
But then new promotional single "Broke Up Today" is a nice ballad.
Due to that, I decided to listen to her CD.

Of course majority of her songs are still rock ballads.
Then LaLaLa came on, it gives a really calm, jazzy feel.
It was an instant favorite and has been my LSS for the last couple of days.
It's hard not to like this song, even if you don't listen to jazz.

nice tune. It makes me wanna La La La~

Super New Year~

2010-01-11T17:30:00.000-08:00

the greatest 4o seconds news of my life so far.
Super Junior 4th album this year.
how fun~ hopefully all members are present.

Pinkified.

2010-01-11T17:25:00.000-08:00

I just opened this blog, yet I feel like moving again XD.

Renovating the house, so it's a mess.
Boy, have I been in distress.
My room is finally pink.
cold, cold, cold~
My room is now vinyl.
No more carpet floor,
and now at least they fixed my door.
Now I gotta start putting things back on its place.
before my grandma starts nagging at my face.

My brain is so fried, yet I blog about my room with a rhyme.
what the hell.

Two Confessions on One Night

2010-01-07T18:14:00.000-08:00

The title says it all. Pretty good timing from those boys huh?
In all honesty, it's pretty burdensome.
Of course, both received a "no" from me. Those "we're better off as friends" statement.
I'm NOT interested, and never will be.

I respect that of course, they may have feelings of still trying to see that maybe I'll change my mind, but really, it won't.
And what's even more worse are the people around them, encouraging them to still go for it.
and those people are my friends. Whaaaa?
They know I'm not interested, yet they still encouraged my suitors to pursue me.
It's frustrating, if they are my friends, they should know where I stand.
and should help ME instead of them.

I'm a pretty private person. I like keeping things down low.
So low, that no one even knows I am currently dating this one guy.
But just dating, because I don't want to be in a relationship right now.

It is burdensome for me that these guys expresses their feelings to me in public, knowing that I just rejected them. Heck, people from San Leandro even knows now >.>
I don't blame them, it is their feelings, who am I to tell them to not express it?
But like I said, my personality finds it burdensome. I don't want to deal with those things.

I am spiteful, I have to say that. When it comes to rejecting guys,
if I don't like them, then it's a big NO and it will never change.
My mind and heart stays firm, because I have so many things to sort out right now,
it is not time for me to venture on relationships yet. So get that?
It would be nice to actually have some people around me to help me out,
to help me tell these boys there's no hope and they should not waste their time on me.
But noooo, the people aroundme really, encourages these boys more.

The people who actually knows me, who actually supports me are miles away from me.
It has been months since I last saw them, and I miss them dearly.
They love listening to my stories and I have to wait two more weeks to be reunited with them.
Better than nothing. I have been keeping this all to myself, once I see them,
I will surely let everything out~ because they know me.

Post-2009

2010-01-01T14:56:00.000-08:00

The countdown with my family is still in my head.
Boy, was it noisy and fun.
I love celebrating New Years with my family--it has been a tradition, we are trying to keep.
I slept around 4am, because my cousins and I are up talking, heart to heart.

Bidding 2009 farewell sure is easy. I know 2009 had many ups and downs- but mainly downs.
I sure had my jolly days, days in which I want to keep in my memories.
But if I was given a chance to relive 2009 again, I'll say no and thank you.

2009 has been great for me, truly I am thankful. All those memories shall be kept.
All the lessons will be learned, and for a fact, all the downfall will help me get through with the worst possible situations I have yet to experience.

My New Year's resolution?
My sister told me, just be a better person than you are from last year.
but how? After giving it some thought, I only came up with one.
For next year, I will try my hardest to not take things for granted anymore.

That has always been the case for me. I will try to be a better Jea in 2010.
A person even I can be proud of. Yikes, that's sounds really hard.

Still, I am looking forward for 2010. Ready? Set and Go.

Beautiful Lyrics & Translation - Super Junior Donghae

2009-12-24T16:09:00.000-08:00

So yeah, I am bias towards Donghae, but I am loving this simple rnb mix song he compose.
He also wrote the lyrics and choreographed the dance. Talented man =]

You are completely beautiful
I just can’t be without you, girl
You are completely beautiful
I just can’t be without you, girl

Cheoum boatdeon geu moseub kieok haeyo
(I think of what we were like when I first met you)
sujubeun miso eosaehan malddu chagabdeon keu so
(Your bashful smile, your shy words, your cold hands)
haru jongil geudaeui saenggakeuro
(I thought of you every day)
amugeotdo halsu ga eobseo (michigesseona)
(I couldn’t do anything) (almost going crazy)

Nuneul ddelsu jocha eobseo
(Unable to turn my gaze away)
geujeo babocheoreom nege bbajo deuleoga
(Like a fool, I could only lose myself in you)
pyeongsaengeul hamkeh balmachueo naga
(I want to walk together with you for a lifetime)
naega jikyeojulke saranghaeyo my love
(I will protect you, I love you, my love)

Cause you are so beautiful
nal sumshiga haneun ne ibseul saranghandanmal uh-oh
(Let me gasp against your lips, to say this phrase, “I love you”)
Cause you are so beautiful
nae geoteman meomulreo (keudae namanui)
(Just stay by my side) (you belong only to me)

My beautiful, my beautiful, oh oh

Shigani heulreoddo naiga deuleodo
(It’s fine if time stops like this; it’s fine if we grow old)
saranghae saranghae kamsahae kamsahae
(I love you, I love you, thank you, thank you)
ddaeroneun datugo geudaeyege
(Occasionally, when there is a quarrel)
nunmuleuljugo ibeul machumeo
(I will cry as I kiss your lips)

Cause you are so beautiful
nal sumshiga haneun ne ibseul saranghandanmal uh-oh
(Let me gasp against your lips, to say this phrase, “I love you”)
Cause you are so beautiful
nae geoteman meomulreo (keudae namanui)
(Just stay by my side) (you belong only to me)

Namaneui geunyeo modeun geoljulge
(I’ve only given her my everything)
yeongwonhi nan neoruel saranghae oh
(I will love you forever, oh)

Cause you are so beautiful
keudae ibsureun naman baragi
(I want your lips to belong only to me)
Cause you are so beautiful
ddak jabeun duson itjianheulge oh
(I will never let go of these hands I hold so tightly)

Credit: meiface.livejournal

We Don't Need Love, Just Papers.

2009-12-20T17:54:00.000-08:00

Isn't it every woman's dream to have a grand wedding?
To walk down the aisle with a Vera Wang wedding dress with tons of spectators.
But apparently, that does not apply anymore.

Proposing is another huge thing. We all want a romantic scene with a WOW engagement ring.
But what if someone, instead of proposing to you, just handed you a piece of paper and told you to sign it and you guys have already tied the knot?
I'm used to hearing of shotgun wedding news, but not this kind.

Although this is unlikely to happen, sadly, it happens.
A celebrity admitted that a fan of his had done this kind of thing.

During a discussion about dating, Mir said, "I have received real marriage documents before."

He added, "A fan came up to me and asked me to marry her. I did not take her seriously, and jokingly replied 'okay'. Next time I saw her, she brought marriage documents with her parent's confirmation on it and asked me to confirm it as well."

So how close was he to marrying that fan? He said, "If my parents and I signed the papers, it would have been a real marriage. Eventually, I persuaded the fan and escaped the uncomfortable situation."

cr:allkpop

Okay, so it's a given that this incident is impossible unless you have insane fans.
I laughed so hard hearing this. I mean, is the girl that delusional?
It makes me curious what's inside her head as to go this far, just because her celebrity love rode on her "joke".

If there are people like this walking in this world, then I need to be incognito.
With my stalkers out there, they might just fool me into signing a $100 discount of cheesecake, but in fact it's really a love contract. Nope, I am not that dumb.
They are dumb enough if they think they can pull that one out of me.

But wouldn't it be ridiculous to think that you are signing a job deal, but then the next day, you found out that you had married your ugly boss? Eww much.

Now I should fly to Korea and have Donghae sign a love contract with me too.
I love how this incident will be the new trend.

"I thought I was going to be a singer, but it turns out that I was signing a marriage contract with my manager" Big ooppss there honey.

Depression In A Whole New Level

2009-12-16T23:05:00.000-08:00

Tonight was rather precious, what a night, you could say.
There's nothing greater than spending your dinner with people you get along with,
hearing new, juicy gossips here and there.

One particular thing that I was quite fond of was this story of a man, who apparently in depression.
Why you ask? Why else will a man be in depression--LOVE of course.
But you would guess that a man will have a love problem, at least that's what we thought.

The strange brother I have did have a love problem, and was depressed about it.
But in a whole different way.
A guy would be lonely around this season because they have no one, all alone.
This brother, was depressed because he has two girls, but couldn't decide which one to date.
wow, talk about being a player? nah, he has no skills for those kind of games.
It just so happens that he met two girls ( all inexperience in relationship) and now expecting something from him because he happens to be friendly to them.

And no, its not like he knows both of them that well, they are just casual friends.
so now he's stuck between which one should he go for, and asked my bestfriend and I for dinner to help him out. You guessed it right, I had to sit my butt down and hear about these stories.

He was looking for a "spark", but neither one had shown him anything.
but does a relationship really needs to start with a spark? No.
Those relationship based on "spark" are those that does not last long because that said spark is just a thing of a moment. Once the spark is gone, their so called love has gone bye-bye too.

A long lasting relationship needs to be develop with steady time. You don't need a spark or a flicker, and that's what I told him. And now the poor guy is more confused.
Apparently, now he doesn't know if he wants to date at all. Haha.

He basically sulk his head down for at least three days, because he was depressed about it.
Okay, I would understand if he was frustrated or confused, but to be depressed because you don't know which girl to date? A whole new level indeed.
Of course, everyone has different ways of reacting to things.
I should have expected this much from this guy since he's a walking confusion.
But he is still a good guy, so I tried to give him my best advice.

However, talking to this guy is like talking to a wall.
He says he gets it, but in actuality he really doesn't get it ..at all.
So did I just waste my saliva that whole night?
Nope, because apparently I myself had heard and talked about other stories out there.
Sure, what a night.

Pay For My Heart Damages Pt. 2

2009-12-13T22:09:00.000-08:00

I decided to follow this story because it is blatantly ridiculous.
I am NOT referring to the lady being heart broken.
Being a female myself and subject to possible heartbreaks, I don't see her being broken as a laughable matter. What I find ridiculous is how she is suing her ex for her heart damage.
I guess it is true that we all have different ways of coping with our heartbreaks.
But I never thought of cashing in some dollars as damages fees.

Her lawyer just stated "Kwon lost everything because of Lee Byung Hun. If it's a crime to trust a man, then we will fight from what's wrong and right until the end."

Is it a crime to trust men? No.
Not men in general are liars, but everyone, it is not gender base.

I say it was the woman's fault for trusting too much, but who am I to judge her heart right?
But reality check, not everyone who have said the phrase "I Love You" really meant it, sadly.
Not every promises made can be fulfilled, but if you are to believe that--
then isn't there a word for that sort of things?
oh, yeah.. did you know that gullible is not in the dictionary?

Should we really hold accountable for people's gullibility?
There's nothing wrong with trusting others, but if you're doing that knowing that you're making a fool of yourself at the same time, then please draw the line.

I was too lazy to post all of the lady's statement, but it seemed like she was.
The guy was no good either, to play with people's hearts like that.
Although in his statement, he broke off with her because she has been demanding too much.
She has been demanding too much during the relationship and after, she's suing for being too heartbroken. Hmm...? So which side would you place your bet on?

She has been releasing pictures of her and her ex-actor to prove to others that they did go out.
Even pictures that police have deemed to be inappropriate to public. Wow.
Showing your heartbreak that much in public, just really makes the other side look like the real bad guy, although its effect is quite the opposite for me.
Knowing that she dated a public figure, she seemed to want to ruin his image.
Is revenge that sweet?

Honesty Is My Best Policy?

2009-12-13T20:30:00.000-08:00

So much things had happened.
Where do I begin?
.......................................

..Nevermind, I forgot, except for one thing.

All I know is that I find myself incapable of being nice for those who I dislike,
rather, unable to pretend to be nice.
When I don't like you, it's very easy to know. I throw attitude here and there.
It might be harsh, as what others have said to me,
but really, would you then rather have my fake friendship?

I do not appreciate plastic people out there, so not to be hypocritical, I stay away from those fake nature. I say things in front of your face, not behind your back because I don't want to talk to your behind. hell no.

I couldn't care less about those who pretend to be my friend, I know who you guys are. (is.)
My questions is, why even bother with me?
Is it that fun to talk behind my pretty back? =]
Well, keep doing that since now you have made your life revolve around me.
Don't worry, I might not like you, but next time, I'm going to make sure to give you an autograph since you seem like one of my biggest fan.
Even noticing and talking about that small spill I made out of my smoothie.

Yes, I'm talking about YOU. Get a clue.
I would have said this in your face if you haven't been trying to avoid me.
Afraid of a small confrontation against lil 'ol me?
Scared that I might embarrassed you?
well honey, that's what you get for trying to mess with me.

If you have been nice, then things would have work out.
but now you made this lady turn into a Sasquatch.
This is not high school so no, I won't put lollipops in your locker so ants would crawl in it.

I have turned a new leaf and I do not do those things anymore.
Just want a chit-chat, one last time, so I can finally erase you from my contacts,
because it is my personality to not leave things undone.
This is not a threat either, just silly 'lil me expressing my daily thoughts..about you.
Happy now? because I have actually given time to talk about you, and wasted my time.
Shall we be friends now?

Sorry Sorry - Answer MV

2009-12-10T21:25:00.000-08:00

And just when I thought Donghae cannot get anymore finerrrr.
Then this showed up. It's a really nice mix of Sorry Sorry.

Black & White. Siwon is giving that "Are you gentle?" look by Daniel Henney.
But my eyes of course is being bias by the guy sitting on the bench, and then started dancing his flawless, smooth and suave moves. Kuya Leo wishes he can dance as smooth as Donghae. My Gulay, his Irony dance is still burned in my mind. How awful.

Pay For My Heart Damages..?

2009-12-08T23:12:00.000-08:00

I find this news ridiculously funny :

Lee Byung Hun of IRIS and G.I. Joe is under fire for supposedly toying with a girl.

22 year old Kwon Mi Yeon from Canada, claims to be Lee Byung Hun's ex-girlfriend. She also claims that Lee Byung Hun tricked her into bed by promising marriage, and has suffered emotionally as a result.

On the 8th, Kwon Mi Yeon filed a $100,000 claim with the Seoul Central District Court against Lee Byung Hun for damages and emotional suffering.

Kwon Mi Yeon stated:

I was introduced to Lee Byung Hun through an acquaintance. He gave me tickets to his movie and we become closer naturally. Shortly after, Lee Byung Hun left for New York, but called me regularly. About 1 week later, towards the end of September, Lee Byung Hun came back to Toronto and we began our full-fledged relationship.

She also stated that after Lee Byung Hun left for Korea, they still kept in touch via phone and email:

At the end of last year, I visited Korea and spent around 10 days with him at his home. Lee Byung Hun also introduced me as his girlfriend to his mother, younger sister and of course his friends.

Kwon also revealed:

The sponsor of Lee Byung Hun, Chairman A told me, "I will let you continue your career in athletics as well as academics by supporting you through college, so leave Canada for Korea to live with Lee Byung Hun." So I left Canada to go to Seoul last July (2009) and lived with him in an apartment in the district of Jamshil. But not even 3 months in, I was thrown out. After I arrived in Korea, Lee Byung Hun's attitude changed. After he kicked me out, he put ~$10,000 as a deposit for a ~$700 rental apartment for me. Afterwards, he has ignored me as if he doesn't even know me.

Kwon Mi Yeon finished off by stating:

I think that this big celebrity used his fame and fortune to take advantage of me and only use me for entertainment then threw me away. This is why I submitted this complaint.

Lee Byung Hun's legal representative stated:

Kwon Mi Yeon and the people around her have been threatening Lee Byung Hun (victim). We plan to investigate this issue.

cr: allkpop

WOW. Seriously, to file a lawsuit just because a celebrity toyed with you and you suffered emotionally? Honey, you are not the only victim of that scenario, sadly. You just made yourself look like a gold digger. Have some pride. A guy threw you out and used you, then that means he is not even worth of your tears. If this case actually pushes through then I'm amazed.

If it is possible to sue someone because of a heartbreak, then I would definitely be in jail =] yikes! And if this is truly possible, then my sister won't be so broke right now.

Cooking Mama.

2009-12-08T20:06:00.000-08:00

Tofu. That white stuff you eat but does not taste like anything.
I don't like it. Only as taho, a filipino dessert...?
Anyways, I never like that stuff.
The fact that it does not taste like anything bothers me.

But then came a Sunday when my Sister was eating tofu
which my Mama made. And that habit kicked in.
You know, when someone next to you is eating you tend to eat as well.
I tried the fried tofu and i liked it ---why?
because it tasted sweet. I knew for a fact my Mother dearest added something to make it sweet.
...but what?

Then just right now, for dinner.
My mother said she'd make fried tofu again.
I quickly jumped up and asked her what did she put on the tofu last Sunday.
She laughed her evil laughed and told me to watch her.
then BAM! She added the secret recipe.
Now I know how to make sweet tofu just right.
She told me to remind her to buy more tofu XD
And now I'm having rice and tofu for dinner, and loving it.

...but did I really just blog about tofu..???

It's You Remix

2009-12-08T19:38:00.000-08:00

FINALLY! I have been wanting an official mp3 for this after watching Super Junior performing it during their SS2. Ironically, it came out few seconds after my rumbling of American music XD
I guess this song defines my previous blog.
The beat and melody are great.

The translation for this song is all over the net already.
And its way better that David Guetta's Sexy Chick lyrics.
Point made.

My Conclusion.

2009-12-08T18:46:00.000-08:00

As I was closing down my livejournal account, *tears* ( I had it for two years now )
I can't help but read my old posts, and I noticed that majority of my posts are about my addiction to underground RnB music.
Then as I look upon this blog, which I just opened couple of days ago,
It's mostly K-pop or Asian stuff.
So what happened to my preference?

Don't get me wrong, I still have many underground RnB in my ipod.
My ears still only recommend such songs ( I listen to diff. of genres too)
Its just that my ipod is slowly piling up with many Asian songs, not American.

Has my taste really change? NO.
Its just that American mainstream has lost its taste.
The beats and melody are not enough to keep a song going for me.
LYRICS matters and that's what western music has been lacking.
Not in general, but its sad to know that I can count those songs that actually have some valuable and worthy lyrics.

Laffy Taffy. Seriously? Write a song about a darn candy?
How about those old days when love songs filled the air--and NO.
It's not cheesy and never will be.
Those who can't stand old love songs have no taste in romance and unable to grasp the true meaning of the word L.O.V.E.

What has become of love songs these days?
Oh I know. They talked about how nice their noses are and how sexy they are.
How the guy is madly in love with her because she has a nice butt.
How he wants to romance her--or rather just bed with her.
They make it seem like lust is love.
Sure, I really wanna use that song in my wedding.

Its unfortunate that in my wedding day, I would prefer to have songs
in a different language just because the lyrics holds a greater value in me.
Don't believe me? Search up "My Everything" eng sub by CSJH the Grace and you'll get me.

So now I reached my conclusion. It's not that my ipod and ears only listen to Asian Music all the time, its because they are notable and more meaningful.
Do I know all the words in the song to give such praises? No.
But I can read, comprehend and remember translations, and apparently that's enough.
It's way better than sitting and listening to a song that just talk about partying like a rock star. Seriously, it is just a waste of my precious time.
There are only few artists in this country that can write great lyrics.
Those lyrics that actually makes sense.

Oh yeah, before I forget, the Asian music I listen to, are hands down, have way better singers.
And all of this are not based in general, but just vast majority =]

My Bias.

2009-12-08T18:25:00.000-08:00

It was my very old desktop.
I have a new one now, and its still Donghae bias.

Before Goodnight.

2009-12-07T22:42:00.000-08:00

I have this friend of mine, which I met Junior Year.
But boy oh boy, did she hate me for no apparent reason. Haha.
well, there was a reason, but it was unjustified.

Who knew that by Senior Year we would share lunch with each other?
Even walk to class together and talked over the phone?
Even stalked the guy she liked XD
Really? This lady who hated me for all the wrong reasons. =]
I even often came by to her house just to kill time, just to find out that we have the same interest, and that's how it all began.

This girl talk non-stop. Once you get her going, she'll never shut up,
and that's why I love her. She'll keep me entertained over by bored days.

So when did it start? Her babbling over the drama Boys Over Flowers.
Then she became a Triple S, SS501 crazy fan girl.
I would never thought she was like that =]

Then I thought that I would introduce her to DBSK, since I'm not a major fan of SS501 so I couldn't really talk to her about it.
and voila! She loved them and became obsessed with them XD

Every time I get a text message from her, I'll be wondering why, or how sweet of her to text me to just see if im doing fine.
Then heartbreaks came because every time I open my message, its about DBSK XD
her and her bias =D

Right now she's texting me, saying that it was me who got her into them, which is true. I texted back saying I'll blog about her, and now I am.
SO are you reading this? hahaha. You probably wanna kill me now.

But in all honesty, its not just kpop that we talked about.
It was kpop that got us closer, but we have more than that.
She tell me of her worries and I have nothing but ears for her.
See? I didn't really talk crap about you XD

Super Junior Wallpaper

2009-12-07T22:08:00.000-08:00

No matter how large your computer screen is,
its still hard to make fit of these 13 boys ^^
I made this for my sister,
she was only new to Super Junior and asked me to make a wallie for her with their names and clear pic so she can easily remember them.

Old Banners

2009-12-07T21:54:00.000-08:00

I used this on Crunchyroll.
I'm possibly going to upload all my wallpapers and banners that I made, which I currently not using anymore.
But of course, expect them to be bias since I only do artworks of my interest, unless requested by someone else. I didn't bother resizing them T_T

The reason why my username is so visible is because for the past years I've been doing this, I have found my works in other sites not credited; and not only that, but they credit themselves for my works. Unfair right? I'll post up new banners/wallies with less visible username of mine, if and only if you credit what's not yours.

and they are my top 3 Korean boys =D

Kim Jeong Hoon - Feeling Lyrics

2009-12-07T19:42:00.000-08:00

You know of Kim Jeong Hoon?
better known as Howl, or John-Hoon in Japan.
He was that sweet prince from Princess Hours.
The one who sang your favorite OST song in Boys Over Flowers, "Love U".
He has a sweet, tender voice.
I'm amazed that hardly anyone has his works translated.

and here is one of my favorite songs from him:

Feeling. A very calming song. I still have to wait a year and a half for him to return in the industry. Sure is a long wait because I would love for him to make yet another lovely song.

Feeling Naegegakkaeewayo
(Come closer to me)
jeegeum nae kaseumen keudaeman kadeuk'aeseo
(Because my heart right now is so filled with you, )
tareun saramee Chajawado poeejeel anayo
(Even if somebody else comes to me I can't see them)
saranghagee ddaemoone
(Because i love you)

Oh feeling
Nareul ootge mandeuneun keudae
(You make me laugh)
Seweolgado nae modeun kee-eoksoge keudaeman eeseojyeoyo
(Even if the seasons pass just be in all my memories,)

Inoruel sessange tanburi chounyoori mana kuharuga
(Even if the seasons pass with the two of us in my memories)
Hoksheerado ooyori yotago marajee mawyo
(Don't say that the day we first met was just by chance)

Keuraeyo naneun keudaebakke moreuneun pabojyo
(Yes that's right I'm a fool who only knows you.)
Keudae-eopsheen motsaneun na-eengeol
(It's me who can't live without you.)
sarangee nal ap'euge mandeuljyo
(Love makes me hurt)
Malhaeyo keudaen eolmamank'eum neukkeego eettneunjee
(Tell me how much you are feeling,)
Namank'eum sojoonghanjee
(Tell me if its as special as it is to me.)
saranghandago malhaejooseyo
(Tell me that you love me.)
Eesoongan keudaereul weonhaeyo
(At this moment I want you.)

Oh feeling
Sarangheeran keureongabwayo
(It must be what they call love.)
Jakkooman pooranhaejeego
(It keeps getting uneasy)
keudaega naemamdaero andwaejyo
(and you can't be the way I want.)

Haemalgeun keudae-e meesoneun nareul haengbokage hajeeman
(Your bright sunny smile makes me happy but)
Hoksheerado nal ddeona peoreemyeon eoddeokanayo
(if by chance you leave me what am I going to do?)

Yeongweonhee naegyeot'e eesseoyo
(Be by my side for forever.)

DO NOT TAKE OUT.

Those Times...

2009-12-07T18:38:00.000-08:00

I dislike myself for being stubborn.
Stubborn enough that I have high expectations about things, which I know will never happened, which just causes in huge disappointment.

I had one of those days today.
I need to lower my expectations although I always find myself unable to do so.
Take things slow, or go with the flow.
Easier said than done, well that's life in general.
Things does not turn out the way you want to.
Today was a major letdown, and I appreciate how the weather seem to always fit my moods. If and only if...

Long Day

2009-12-06T20:28:00.000-08:00

My Sundays are always long.
I always start my day at 5:30 am and I go home at least around 4 pm.
the latest is 6 pm. I attend and go to Church.
And I love spending my days with my Church friends,
they are practically my second family.
I love them although there are times that they drive me crazyyyy. haha.

...and I still have those essays to write.
ahhhh~

My Current Number 1 Obsession.

2009-12-06T20:07:00.000-08:00

Who? Of course none other than Super Junior's Lee Donghae.
Why? Just because, too many words to explain, can't come up with just one word to say about him.

This is Super Junior: yes, there are 13 of them with their latest hit songs Sorry Sorry:

and It's You:

the first guy singing, @0:29 is Lee Donghae =]

I personally like It's You better although Sorry Sorry was a better hit, maybe cause Nick Bass choreograph the dance? hmmm.

anyways, I have been addicted to this group for yearsss now, and not once did I lost interest. Why you ask? because theses 13 boys are hilarious. I watched their variety shows in youtube and i seriously gained six packs by just laughing my head off.

I learned about them just through browsing youtube, and Donghae was just my immediate favorite member. He has the sweetest voice and must I say, a very smooth dancer. He is also silly and caring, too much things to say to describe this guy.

then I stumbled this fancam of Donghae singing I'm Yours.

Granted, pronunciation is not perfect but don't even try to bash; that will be hypocritical because I would wanna see you try speak Latin, and see if those ancestors wouldn't make fun of your accent either.
Nonetheless, I did mention he is a smooth dancer right?

So that's why he is my obsession right now.

Ninja Assasin

2009-12-05T19:44:00.000-08:00

I like it very much, despite the gory scenes.
i love how they threw in comedy here and there.
Rain's acting is still superb.
MUST-SEE definitely! am I just saying that because of my Rain bias?
You try watching his drama Full House and see if you can't be bias too XD
His acting in that drama is the cutest.
but Ninja Assasin is really good.
I'll give it an 8 out of 10.

Big Bang LG Cyon Crystal CF

2009-12-05T19:24:00.000-08:00

Don't you just love Big Bang? because I definitely do.
and not because I'm Seung Ri bias, but just because they are Big Bang.
I'm totally in love with their newest Japan single "Let Me Hear Your Voice".

I really like that phone.

Morning Musume - Kimagure Princess

2009-12-05T19:15:00.000-08:00

Tsunku, what have you done? T_T
of all lyrics, why write something like this for Morning Musume.

well, who am I to complain.
Their fanbase in Japan are probably all over this song.

I Love Asia Project - Smile Again

2009-12-05T18:52:00.000-08:00

Looking back, how i miss this song. It's really nice. Kudos to JYP, music genius indeed.

Lyrics and Translation

(Jo Sungmon) Uhl-mana ahpeunee, jung mahl numoo mahnee heemdeul kkuh-ya
How much it must hurt / Really very difficult it’ll be
(Clazziquai) uhdoom sohk-eh-suh han-jool-ki beet-doh, boh-ee-jeel ahna
In the heart of darkness / There isn’t even a streak of light
(Park YongHa) gaseumee numoo apah, noon-mool johchado heu-reu-jeel ahn-nee?
The heart hurts so much / You can’t even cry
(Narcia, Kan MiYeon) uh-dee-roh gahl-jji molah, mem-dohl-dahga, joo-jun ahnja eet nii
Don’t know where you will go / You wander around and sink down

(ALL) I'll be on your side hamkkeh hal-kkeh
I’ll be on your side / We’ll do it together
I'll give you my hand, neh sohn-eul jab-kkoh eruhnah~
I’ll be on your side / We’ll do it together
Noon-mooree mah-reul tteh kkah-jee
Until the tears dry out
nah-yeh uh-kkeh-yeh kee-deh suh shwee-ryum,dashee eeruhnah~
My shoulder you can count on / To rest and rise again
nee oot-neun moh-seub-eul gee-dah-ril-kkeh
I will wait for your smiling face.

(Jackie Chan) dool-luh boh-ah-doh amoo-run hweemangdo moh-ee-jeel ahn-ko
Even though you look around / You cannot see any hope
(Hwang JeongMin, ChaeYeon) ee geen uhdoom ggeut-chee nahee ahn-eul guht-man gaht-go
This long darkness / Seems like it will not end
(Kim DongWan) haru haruga numoo, gil-go him-deul-geh-man neu-kyuh-jee-nee?
Each day each day is very / Long and hard though you feel
(Kim Ah Joong) eruhnal heemdo ubssub, jeh-jah-ree-eh, joo-juh ahnjah eet-nee
No strength to even rise / You sink down in the same spot

(ALL) (Shin HyeSung) I'll be on your side hamkkeh hal-kkeh
I’ll be on your side / We’ll do it together
I'll give you my hand, neh sohn-eul jab-kkoh eruhnah~
I’ll give you my hand / Grab my hand and rise.
Noon-mooree mah-reul tteh kkah-jee
Until the tears dry out
(Son HoYoung) nah-yeh uh-kkeh-yeh kee-deh suh shwee-ryum,dashee eeruhnah~
My shoulder you can count on / To rest and rise again
nee oot-neun moh-seub-eul gee-dah-ril-kkeh
I will wait for your smiling face.

(Kim TaeHee) Eet-ji-mah~ neegah heem-deul-goh jee-cheel-tte madah~
Don’t forget / Every time it’s difficult and you’re exhausted
(Han HyeJin) nehga yuh-gee, nuh-ee dwee-eh suh eet-dah-neun guh-sseul
I am here / Right behind you.
(Jeon HyeBin) Nun hohn-jah gah ahnyah~ neh-gah yuhgee gyuh-tae suh eet-neun han
You’re not alone / I’m right here beside you
(Lim JeongHee) Cause I'll always be here for U

(ALL) (Lim JeongHee,WheeSung) I'll be on your side hamkkeh hal-kkeh
I’ll be on your side / We’ll do it together
(SunYe, WheeSung) I'll give you my hand, neh sohn-eul jab-kkoh eruhnah~
I’ll give you my hand / Grab my hand and rise.
Noon-mooree mah-reul tteh kkah-jee
Until the tears dry out
nah-yeh uh-kkeh-yeh kee-deh suh shwee-ryum,dashee eeruhnah~
My shoulder you can count on / To rest and rise again
nee oot-neun moh-seub-eul gee-dah-ril-kkeh
I will wait for your smiling face.

(ALL) (JYP) I'll be on your side hamkkeh hal-kkeh
I’ll be on your side / We’ll do it together
(Jang Nara) I'll give you my hand, neh sohn-eul jab-kkoh eruhnah~
I’ll give you my hand / Grab my hand and rise.
Noon-mooree mah-reul tteh kkah-jee
Until the tears dry out
nah-yeh uh-kkeh-yeh kee-deh suh shwee-ryum,dashee eeruhnah~
My shoulder you can count on / To rest and rise again
nee oot-neun moh-seub-eul gee-dah-ril-kkeh
I will wait for your smiling face.

(Kim YeonAh)Dashee oot-neun moh-seub-eul gee-dah-ril-kkeh
I will wait for your smiling face.

cr: girlwithsmalleyes @ z-degrees.net

My distraction...

2009-12-05T18:25:00.000-08:00

Haha, surfing the web was not a good distraction.
because now i'm LAZY to continue my essays.
i still have tomorrow, so i guess its better to call it quits for today.

anyhow, After School is like the Korean version of PCD.
I was never a fan of them nor their songs, (but I'm not an anti)
but I must admit, their comeback songs are pretty good.

so I liked this performance:

When I Fall is a nice song. The first song I ever like from this group.
Because of You, I didn't pay attention to it, honestly.
but the song grew on me.