ANGERED.

There are so much feelings within me I'm not even up to making poems.
Let's just be straightforward.

I'M ANGRY. No, not pissed or upset. ANGRY.

Why? Same scenario like last night. Ugh.
The feeling of having people take advantage of you.
It's hard to take advantage of me since I always know what people are up to with me.
This time, I knew it was going to happen and let it happen.
So I'm paying the consequences by feeling so irritated right now.

It's because we are friends-- closest of friends.
Best friends are you best enemies and once you argue with them, it's like raining fireballs.

I got so heated up that I bluntly told her what she's been doing.
That I know what she's up to and yet I'm cool with it.
Those guilt trip statements, you know? I'm an expert with that.
So then she backed off and let me had my way.
No duh, you can't talk the talk with me, even if you are as feisty as my best friend.
She herself, know the trouble and lost she'll have to deal with once she crosses the line with me.

I was letting out my anger with my other best friend online.
We can relate--since we are both going through the same dilemma. HER.
The text messages I got from her was just--let's just say that if she were talking to my face, she wouldn't even have time to finish her sentence since my hand would automatically hit her face.
That would be terrible, since she's a fighter..so that's one cat-fight a referee wouldn't want to be involved with. WWF anyone?

Wait, what the hell. I'm suppose to be mad. Got distracted since my sister and my other best friend online are talking to me. On the bright note, it's nice to know that I don't hold grudges that long anymore. Or at least I get distracted from being angry for a second.

Anyways, this is the last time that she and I will talk, for now.
"Are you going to be cool with her still after this?" is what my other friend asked.
Of course, I forgive and forget now. I wouldn't throw away everything we had just because we argued tonight. Arguments are part of life, unfortunately. You learn things and what did I learn with my argument with her?

That she is scared of losing me as her best friend as I am from losing her...
Wait, I guess I am a bit mad still since right now, I feel that I couldn't care less..hah.
Since these kinds of ups and downs happen in friendships, for tonight..
Just let me be mad.